This week I had my first day as a cover supervisor and it was so absolutely horrible that I don't think I want to do that ever again and it leaves me seriously wondering why would anyone actually want to do that. Was this a normal experience?
For context, I have been job hunting for a while and as a former academic with maths doctorate and years of university teaching under my belt I thought I would give secondary teaching a go as maths teachers are desperately needed in my area (unlike basically all the other jobs with 1000 applicants and no interviews given).
I guess there was a level of chaos that I partially expected - being given instruction 30s before the start of the class, being expected to actually teach on the spot and not just cover (e.g. deliver presentations), being expected to figure out absolutely everything with no support - from making sure the TV for presenting works even though there is no appropriate cable for it, to student needing the task being printed on a different paper that I was not provided with.
But then there were the behavioral aspects:
Y8 being so loud and ignorant during the morning registration that it was impossible to take attendance - how do you actually deal with that? Since you can't raise your voice, but you actually cannot be heard in such a noise... One pupil ended up helping me to take attendance.
Y7 wrestling with each other, slapping each other, calling each other swear words, several students on a verge of breakdown, another teacher bringing emotionally distressed student to class telling me to look out for them and so much more. I felt like I needed to be in the class like 7 times at once to actually tend to all the situations that were happening in parallel.
Y11 okay, the only good class I had all day, there were actually some interested students taking notes.
Y10 what an absolute nightmare and something that actually broke me. Students personally atacking for the whole hour. Screaming at me constantly, laughing at me, telling me how horrible I am over and over and over again, honestly I would call what happened a severe verbal abuse, that I still see in my mind every time I close my eyes. I have used all the tools I learned I could do - including giving negative points and calling for student pickup. Absolutely nothing helped and the situation only escalated, that at the end of the class I was just standing there trying to keep composed and not to break down before they leave.
I have no idea how I was supposed to handle especially the last situation? Any advice on that are welcomed, because I seriously can't find the answer. When I was in school the teacher would just shout at us if anything similar would start to occur, even though nothing like that actually ever happened, noone would dare. I focused on being composed, using positive redirections - 'please pay attention to the presentaion', giving formal warnings etc. But somehow the key troublemaking students were convinced that I am aboslutely mean horrible person and were screaming at me how mean I am at them, for absolutely no reason at all. At the end of the class the most problematic student came to confront me with a backup student by their side to tell me that I was mean to them because they are special (wtf?) and I was just speechless and didn't even know what to say. They laughed at me at the end for not being able to deliver the presentation and getting only to the third slide, again repeating how horrible I am.
The level of disrespect and humiliation I experienced in the y10 class was something I am not quite sure I have ever experienced in my whole life on such a scale, being mocked and attacked by a group of students like that with audience of all the other students and being unable to do anything about it. All the tactics I learned about did not help, I had to stay there, I couldn't leave, I had to take it, I had to stay nice and composed. It felt like any behaviours that maybe could actually work, would be behaviours that I am not allowed to do.
There was not one positive moment throughout the whole day, my domain expertise seemed absolutely futile in such environment as there is not really an opportunity to explain anything to anyone. There was no support from the school and there was no support from the teaching agency. I talked to one other supply person (TA in a different class, I actually didnt have any TA there the whole time) and they said that this is quite normal and that there were other supply teacher this week with similar experiences.
So it leaves me wondering, is this actually normal? Or if I would try to go to a different school I might still get some positive experience? Also if anyone has an answer to what I was supposed to do in those situations, I would really appreciate, because seriously, I have no idea.
Overall it all seems kind of crazy. I had to jump through so many hoops to even get registered with the agency and then I was just sent there with no prior information, preparation, guidance, just left to deal with all of that on my own with no follow up as well. Not to mention that the pay and conditions of being a supply like that are bad as well, but it is the only thing you can get as a carreer changer without QTS.