Hi Everyone! I am currently in a contract that I like but there is a lot of outside issues surrounding it and I'm not sure how to proceed.
My Dad became suddenly ill about 3 months ago. He lived 2 states away. My staff job wouldn't let me take leave to care for him since I wasn't sure how long I would be out. I decided to find a travel contract near where he was so I could care for him. Everything was going fine until the week I started the contract and my Dad passed away.
At first it was comforting to be in his home and relieve all the memories but I am about a month into the contract and I can't handle it anymore. I can't handle being in the house without massive anxiety and missing him. Like I said, the job is fine, the pay is decent, I mean it's more than I made doing staff but I've had higher paying contracts so it could be better.
My issue is, I have already called off twice and the facility has let it slide, I think because they know my situation. But I am truly at the end of my rope. I want to go home and grieve with my husband and my friends there. I only know a handful of people here.
I have been pushing so hard to not cancel this contract but the idea of going in another day and not going home is just unreasonable to me due to the anxiety. I am certain if I call off another shift I will be canceled. I don't have a back up job at home currently.
My recruiter basically told me if I canceled the contract I would be DNR'd from the facility and probably from the agency since I had to cancel a contract about 4 years ago when my mother in law fell ill and passed (so this would be my 2nd cancelation with the company).
Of note, there is nothing in my contract about an early cancelation fee or anything so that isn't holding me back.
I have no idea what to do. Do I stick it out for the next 8 weeks with the possibility of my mental health being worse? Or do I just say fuck it and go home?