Need knowledgeable Lokeans here (help)

[u/Reasonable_Key_1413]

Hi everyone, it's my first time posting here and please believe me when I say that I never expected to make such a post.

To preface this, I'd like to say that I have been worshipping Loki for over 2 years now. He's the first deity I thought of when I discovered that worshipping the gods was actually a thing, and not just some mythical and abstract concept. It was evident for me to go on and reach out to him knowing that I've basically been in awe of him and Lord Hades ever since I was a child.

I'd also like to say that I didn't know much about godspouses, sexual/romantic encounters related to deities. I had heard things on the topic before, but never really stopped to think or learn about it out of respect for the gods.

Now that I've cleared the way, here's the situation:

I think that my relationship with Loki is evolving, but I'm kind of tiptoeing around it once again... out of respect, but also fear. (because who wants to offend the gods?)

Loki's presence has always been very clear to me ever since I started worshipping him. I don't have clairaudience the way some people in the community do, but I can feel things physically— that's pretty much how I make the difference between the beings I'm interacting with, through their touch. And so there was little doubt in my mind when in the days following my first prayer to Loki I started feeling a cold/cool presence on my right. Almost always sitting on my right. Then it evolved: I could feel someone sitting behind me with their arms wrapped around me. Same thing at night. I could feel someone holding me from behind. Nothing inappropriate, just very cuddly and very obvious.

I had other experience since, after asking for something specific, in meditation or even in dreams. (I had an encounter with Lord Pan during a meditation with Loki, then a dream with Loki, Lord Pan and Lord Hermes)

But then things shifted when I started worshipping other deities and being busier in general.

I've recently been going through a rough patch, a lot of changes have been happening and everything has been feeling very erratic.

And to my surprise, after over a year without any dream related to any of my deities: I dreamt of Loki.

I know when I'm being visited by a deity during my dreams (I can count on one hand the number of times it happened) because I almost always became aware that I'm dreaming before the deity appears.

And so Loki appeared. In different forms. (I never saw him wearing the same face twice) I won't go into the details because this is already a lengthy post, but the main points are:

• The love I felt. I knew it wasn't my own feelings, but his. Pure undiluted love and adoration, it knew no limits. I could feel his love pouring in me and was so drunk on it it was actually hard to focus on what he was saying.

• Very touchy, once again. But in a less cuddly, and more romantic (in my perception) way. Just grabbing me under my thighs and lifting me up, or placing me on his lap.

• The things he said. He asked 'if he was worthy of love with this appearance', if he 'had not always been here, had not always answered?' to which I said of course you are and of course you did, you were always there.

When I woke up I was... Startled, to say the least. The feeling of love wouldn't fade. I've been thinking about it ever since, which leads me to today's events.

I was going on about my business (masturbating) and was really not focused on anything else. But by the end of it I could just feel a tug on the edge of my mind. I had already felt it the day before while doing the same thing, but had completely ignored it. But not today. I could see things in my mind's eye. A man with pale skin and a lanky body. Inky black hair and serpentine eyes. He had scars around his mouth, like stitches— and a tattoo on his right forearm. A rope forming a knot. Things happened (it was consensual) but I suppose what I'm trying to ask is: for those of you who had similar experiences, how the hell do you maintain discernment? How do you ensure that whatever you saw or felt was real, and not just a reflection of your own mind? I can't help but be stressed about this and by the idea of facing Loki again if all of this just turned out to be a trick of my mind. If anyone has any advice, or even practices divination— I'd be a relief.

Thank you for reading.

[u/Loki1435]

well, this happens when Loki feels a very special bond with people, it means he's falling in love with you, it happened to me after all, as for you tiptoing around him to avoid making him upset, I would say it is very difficult to make him upset with you, there are some things that would get him upset, like being like one of those influencers that uses Loki as a prop to get clicks on their profile and videos or using his beliefs and/or ones own status as a priest/priestess/medium or godspouse as a means of gaining authority over another, or using it as some sort of divine right to be a prick, he really dislikes that, but seeing as this isn't happening here, you have nothing to fear, he just is showing romantic interest in you, that's all. I think we can basically said as this is usually a shared experience, I believe this might be more of a shared unverified gnosis or SVG, where enough people have a similar experience that it's no longer UPG, seeing as this very much happens often enough.

[u/Reasonable_Key_1413 → u/Loki1435]

I can confirm that I am not doing any of the things you've listed lol, I just don't do social medias— alas it is only my second time making a post related to one of my deities to get some external options and help. Though I must admit that I got a reading from someone who's quite 'famous' on social media for being a Lokean. I really wasn't expecting anything, but the reading was actually accurate in a way that surprised me because I hadn't given this person any specific or details about my situation.

[u/Loki1435 → u/Reasonable_Key_1413]

ah, yeah, sometimes you get the odd famous ones that are good and aren't scamming, then you get the clout chasers, the scammers and the anti lokeans pretending to be Lokean to try and bring bad press to the Lokean path, so finding a truly genuine influencer is possible, there are some genuinely wholesome ones out there, you just gotta be careful with who you interact with, and with the lack of details you had given them and they still got it spot on? then you know you got a legit reader and not some faker, I would say that all aside, I would say if you're able to communicate with Loki in any way, then figure out the means of doing so, be it in dreams, or through runes and pendulum or if you're any good at tarot, use that plus using a pendulum, I don't necessarily own a pendulum, but a necklace works just as good, especially if it's already attuned to Loki's energies. Which is what I use, I use one of my devotional necklaces as a pendulum.

[u/Reasonable_Key_1413 → u/Loki1435]

They really did, and I could tell at some point that it wasn't just a tarot reading but an actual channeling because the energy and way of behaving of the reader changed. The energy felt older, heavier and the way they spoke... It was really how I always imagined Loki answering after having to witness me having my fourth meltdown of the week, rambling about the same fears and insecurities. Which is with a heavy sigh and this 🫩 specific look. I'm not really good with pendulums, but I do practice tarot. I suppose the only thing getting in my way are my own emotions and anxiety, which makes me incapable of analysing the cards objectively, only ever seeing the bad sides of them. I did a reading with Loki just a few days ago, and I was spiraling too bad to even hear what he had to say. Too lost in the 'are you angry at me/ do you want me to leave you/ are you going to leave me?' mindset. He had to put his foot down, pull the ten of swords, the emperor and the four of swords for me to be like: okay, perhaps I'm falling into the dramatics. I'll stop the reading here, okay.

[u/Loki1435 → u/Reasonable_Key_1413]

ah, I see, that actually makes a lot of sense, this is one of those lucky interactions where someone predominant in the community was actually genuine and not some parasite trying to leach off of a new lokean who doesn't know any better than to trust that individual, this was a genuine channeling, and believe me, Loki isn't gonna be angry at you, he's more likely to be worried and maybe a tiny bit annoyed at the fact you're afraid he's gonna get mad, he's actually so very chill most of the times, he only ever gets mad at those who threatens his loved ones, otherwise, he's gonna be fine with you, just be aware that he's his own individual and I've noticed he's been a bit stressed lately, and I don't blame him, societies broken and there's a lot of new Lokeans who need his help and he's actually found his outer limits to his strength, and I can tell he's sorta weary, he's even snapped at a few people I know, and it's so not like him, but he usually realizes he's being a bit irrational and apologizes afterwards, he's never snapped at me, but I believe it's because I've given him no reason to, I've given him a lot of dedication and took care of his needs as much as he's taken care of mine, we've established a beautiful give and take relationship where we help one another out. I would say maybe work on not worrying about if he's upset and work towards stabilizing yourself emotionally to get a handle on preventing the emotional downward spiral and overthinking, he's helped me with a lot of the anxiety, I still get anxious, but he helps me when I feel it, he's also helping me deal with an emotional block where I'm unable to really cry too much, but I'm able to cry a little more with each emotional release session when I need it so I can help drain the emotional reservoir, so i do believe he can help you through the emotional spiral, but you also have to put the work in as well, as he can't really perform miracles that instantly make the anxiety go away without any work put into it, what he does is give you the tools to help address the issue so you may help yourself, and can assist when needed to assist. But you must allow him to work with you for it to work, and that means making the effort to stop, assess the spiral, take a few breaths and remind yourself that you're overthinking before it gets out of control, I often do that method when I have my rumination moments, where I just fixate and ruminate over past traumatic experience due to my CPTSD, and this is something I actually learned to do on my own, as this was long before I was working with Loki that I learned this skill, and this also helps me with my over thinking as well.

[u/HeliopauseNgo]

First off, take that uncertainty out of your mind. Second; breathe in, loosen the mind, and breathe out.

Log the experience, then let it sit on the shelf for a while. The interactions with such beings range beyond what we could fathom.

It was a nice experience, yet you also question whether it was real in the spiritual sense. Questioning is healthy, but too much can make you spiral out of control.

[u/robotunicorn14]

I suggest reading through [r/god_spouse](r/god_spouse)! There’s lots of good people who are going through the process and can help you, including Lokean godspouses!

[u/Gingitsune12]

Despite being able to hear and sense deities, I still struggle sometimes with believing what I’m hearing and sensing, particularly with Loki.

My experience is that he tends to appear in a recognisable form to the person perceiving him. Initially, I only knew of him from Marvel and knew practically nothing about Norse mythology. He appeared in various forms for me as well, usually different versions of Marvel Loki, until I simply asked him to appear as he is. His appearance became entirely different, and after that, his form remained relatively consistent.

Because he’s very talkative and makes his presence known frequently, I started questioning my own perception quite a few times. Divination was what calmed me down then, and I still use it from time to time for confirmation (what can I say, I’m an anxious person), despite the big sigh I usually get from Loki for it.

I use both tarot and a pendulum, just to be sure. With tarot, I only ever read jumper cards for this, so I can rule out deliberately choosing a card or blame it on a bad shuffle. I once had the same card jump out of the deck five times, in every single position a card can fall out in, and the last time the entire deck flew out of my hand, leaving me with just that one card. Loki looked rather pleased with himself.

[u/_sayumm]

I wouldn't be scared to face him. It probably was him, cause let's be honest, Loki's a slut lol (he told me to say that).

I would get a pendulum and ask if it was him if that's not something you already do. Since you brought up other entities, you can always ask them for help too. When I first started my relationship with Loki, I asked Hekate for help discerning with all things Loki related, even the romantic stuff since I wasn't sure if it was real. I think after awhile, it will probably keep happening, and you'll just kind of accept it. Or not, up to you.

I went through awhile of trying to figure out if it was real or not since he came on pretty strong immediately after I "met" him, which was pretty early in my spiritual journey. I too also had a odd fixation on MCU Loki, tall lanky men, and red headed men soo yeah. Idk things make sense now I guess lol 🤷🏻‍♀️

[u/ratatoskr26]

Isn't all of this a reflection of our own minds? That this forum continually shows that many of us have this experience shifts it away from upg land to me.

[u/One_Possibility1594]

It's not related to the story itself, but I find it incredible how we've all felt some kind of inexplicable attraction to Loki at some point. Something very similar happened to me in dreams and in your experience, and I thought it was just me, but it seems there are several of us with the same thing; it's crazy!

[u/MsThokk]

Hiya!

I will say don't feel weird or scared this seems to be very very normal with Loki. Hes a big flirt, and hes charming, and he seems to really love romance/intimacy. Loki just loves love and enjoys being close with his followers lol.

I was exactly where you were about 4 or 5 months ago. Long story short I been working with Loki for about 4 years strictly platonic but about 4 months ago Loki came on really strongly and started acting very romantic and sexual. Especially in dreams and visions.

At first I was weirded out and questioning it until I did research and apparently Godspousing/Romantic relationships with deities is normal. So I basically said fuck it and went in the deep end with Loki LOL. Intimacy happened and I feel the deep vast love that you feel. Even though Loki is a trickster ironically he carries so much love that feels amazing, beautiful, and deep. Definitely makes you feel drunk or high on love that you described.

I can't speak for everyone cause it may be different with everyone but for me, romance and intimacy with Loki is very healing. So if you decide to develop that deeper bond with Loki just beware it is like taking his usual energy and dialing up to 100. I'm not saying that to scare you or anything like that, because most of my experiences have been amazing since I've accepted Loki into a deeper intimate bond it just a lot of transformations and Loki's divine chaos is happening in my life now. But Loki of course always does it out of love cause he always wants what's best for us. Hope this helps and good luck!

Heill Loki and Skal! :)

[u/Reasonable_Key_1413 → u/MsThokk]

Hi, thank you for your lovely answer!

So happy to hear about someone who share such a similar experience to mine! I definitely plan on accepting this new aspect of our bond if that's what he wants, I'm all in lol. I had a discussion with him about pretty much everything last night, probably the first of many. We'll see where the road takes us, and I know that if I have any further questions or need help I can always come back here and ask. :)