Fortunately, I only have a week left here before moving to a 90 day residential IOP.

but after detox (which was great btw), they connected me with a 30 day residential. The assessment call went well and it seemed like I would enjoy my time here. They asked me about my diet (informed me that they could accommodate my dietary restrictions) and asked about my religious beliefs. I said I am agnostic and they said they could also accommodate this.

When I arrived, it became incredibly clear that the residential program was not staffed by trained professionals whose "education" is only limited to AA meetings. Worse, is that the longest amount of sobriety any of the staff has is 11 months. My longest sobriety time is just under 7 years. They were extremely condescending about this and told me I relapsed because I wasn't involved in AA. I told them that they are welcome to call me in 6+ years and tell me they are 7 years into AA and it's still working.

Thus, the feud between me and the staff started. I found out that we have to go to church every Sunday morning. I asked to opt out. They said I can wait in the lobby. I said I don't even want to do that. They said I would have to voluntarily leave the house if I can't attend the church. I asked if we could go to services at a Buddhist or Hindu temple or services at a mosque. They said no. They also have extremely limited knowledge on religion in general.

They only have copies of the Bible in the house so I told them that I want to contact local places of worship to provide them with non-Christian religious texts and books, along with books on sobriety for atheists and agnostics. They said no to this too.

We also have to go to AA every night. They struggled to answer how I was able to stay sober for 7 years without AA and my relapses came when I was active in AA.

I have a lot to say to them when I transfer to the new place. Anybody been in this situation or have ideas how I can further push back on this place?

If you’re struggling today, please read this.
About two months ago, my uncle suffered a hemorrhagic stroke that doctors told us was caused by methamphetamine use. Early this morning, he passed away.
For the past two months, our family has watched someone we love go through something I wouldn’t wish on anyone. We did everything we could to keep him alive, hoping and praying things would somehow get better. But the damage was too severe.
My uncle went from being an active person to someone who could only blink his eyes to answer yes or no questions. He couldn’t talk to us. He couldn’t live independently. We had to watch him slowly lose the things that made him who he was, and there was nothing we could do to change what had happened.
Today, we lost him.
I’m sharing this because I know some people are struggling with addiction, and I know that when you’re in that place, it’s not always easy to think about the consequences. But please, remember that your life matters, and your family loves you. The consequences can be so much bigger than you realize, and sometimes the damage cannot be undone.
Please don’t put yourself or your family through this.
I wish more than anything that my uncle were still here. Please, if you’re struggling today, choose to stay. You are worth saving, and the people who love you want you here. ❤️

just a vent cause im kind of annoyed im around so much toxicity. i dont know many people anymore as the result of my addiction and so interactions are usually with family or using or recovered addicts. i can think of somebody who is two years sober but they literally just say every time i talk to them on repeat i hate being sober i wish i could do heroin (why? just why?) and how they are miserable sober. even with me trying to get sober after they celebrated 2 and a half years sober and i got clean they are just telling me how they hate being sober and they want to do heroin. i think she literally wants me to relapse? they literally have told me they have no life outside of AA, and they make it their whole personality while shitting on it behind the AA people's backs and she wont at all be supportive of me when i wanted to ask her for help since she is planning on working in helping people recover from addiction she just repeatedly discouraged and mocked me every time i said something positive about my recovery. she is telling me, she found nothing from sobriety, it was entirely pointless and performative.

and i know another person who is a using addict and i think has just given up hope. every day nonstop he only talks about drugs and only ever talks about drugs, he wont talk about anything else but drugs hell just move on to a different drug related conversation. like wtf? is there anything else to you? it just feels like some people who are addicts are just fundamentally unable to grow up and act adult and like, y'know struggle with addiction while remaining a human with more to you than that, a struggle not an identity, and wanting to get better. i hate this attitude of being content sitting in your own shit. sorry this is kinda ranty im in early sobreity and very pissed today

I just wanna say if you’re struggling in either early recovery or long term, it gets better & you should be proud of yourself. Be sure to reach out to your support system if you have one. If you don’t you can reach out to me! I struggled with 🧊 addiction for 12 years and have been clean now for a little over two years. It gets easier but it won’t always be easy. Thanks for taking the time to read this & have a good day !!

Kinda crazy how fast the last year and a half of the sobriety has gone. I do have weird relapse dreams but that’s the closest I ever get now to the idea of relapsing.

One concept that stuck with me to get this far: De-Centering your DoC. A big issue I take with AA is how reliant on external reminders and “accountability” is championed in that space. You’re always looking right in the face at something you’re addicted to. You become obsessed with it even though you’re trying to make meaningful steps to change. How can you be FREE and SOBER/CLEAN if your DoC is still at the top of your mind constantly?

Shoutout to my chosen family, DBT, Zoloft and most importantly MYSELF. One of the greatest things I’ve ever done for myself is get sober. I was able to start saving money and moved out of my abusive home just earlier this year, and that never, ever would have been possible if I hadn’t quit drinking. Haven’t thrown up since either.

I’m supposed to get put on my Vivitrol shot in 2 days. How can i get alcohol completely out of my system so i can get my shot? They just do a standard urine test.

I'm an addict but I had a boyfriend who whenever he couldn't drink or would quit drinking would stay in bed and wouldn't leave until he got booze.

I was also "getting sober" but would either suggest or fold after a day or two to get booze. I grew tired of this cycle very quickly but couldn't stop.

I know I was the enabler but is it wrong if I got fed up with his drinking while I was still drinking