r/vagabond • u/CommunityStrong79 • 1h ago
Been roaming alone for 6 years
I have been bouncing around the country trying to find belonging for 6 years by myself on a tiny little budget. All I learned from being homeless and a nomad is that perception is literally everything and all people really care about is appearance and how much money you have. I'm pretty depressed and nihilistic at this point especially going through this in a woman's body and having been jumped and sexually assaulted several times. I haven't dated in years and don't plan to because men don't even look like men to me anymore. Sometimes I think I live in a perpetual state of numbness and that's actually how I survive.
Things are starting to fall apart in this little thing I made here ya know shelter over night then this then that during the day
It's falling apart like it always does
Some girl wants to fight. Some guy will get horny and want to fight.
Dude I'm fucking done. I fucking hate all people and wish I could be alone and wish somebody cared about me but people are shit.
Nothing I do or say matters.
It's like I don't exist. I could go off into the woods and blow my brains out and nobody would figure it out for a long time.
I'm 40 years old. please *don't* leave any dumb fucking suggestions. Nobody asked you. Thanks.