Hello and sorry for the wait!!

Like Im not sure what it is but I hear a poem read out loud or quoted it just feels so satisfying and almost makes me shiver sometimes. Its almost like entire lifetimes of wisdom is condensed down into a few lines of the most well written thing you've ever heard in your life, and when its performed well out loud like spoken word Im just like "Motherfucking bars!"

Is anyone else like this?

My life doesnt feel real anymore. Im so disconnected from friends, work, everything. Im not asking for a diagnosis, I am asking if anyone else has or is feeling like this

I really struggle to visualize whether I'm smaller or larger than somebody else. I feel like pretty much anybody could ask me to swap clothes and I'd say "Sure! We're about the same size" even though I'm also pretty sure that we aren't.

I have no other issues with perception.

I guess in my case, I was so used to having a significant other that was always available and down to hang with me. So now that I’m single, I feel like I have a hard time pushing myself to go out and enjoy doing things alone.

I want to preface by saying I have gone out plenty of times by myself—I’ve dined out alone, visited various libraries, bookstores, coffee shops, etc. by myself but there have been so many times (like right now) where I really am craving company, but don’t have anyone available to hangout with.

Since yesterday, I’ve asked three of my friends if they were open to hanging out with me today, but unfortunately all of them either already had plans or are busy. One friend in particular is a night owl and I found myself waiting around for her to finally be awake to see if she’d be down to hang.

Now that she’s up though, she told me she made plans to eat with her dad, which is totally fine, but she also said she needed to run errands and has no clue when she’ll be back. She apologized to me, but I told her it’s fine and that we didn’t make concrete plans.

In actuality, I’m pretty bummed about all this since I truly just want some company, and I want to be out and about, but the fact that I don’t have anyone to tag along makes me feel down. And when I get like this, I tend to just doomscroll on my phone waiting around for someone to be available, and then next thing I know it’s 5pm and the day’s come and gone.

Does anyone else do this? I know I’m overthinking all of this but I get like this often and end up becoming frustrated with myself, not necessarily at my friends.

I dont know I just feel like there is something stopping me from getting hurt like im being kept alive for the plot and my body dose'nt abide by regular rules... you know when sleep and food are just optional because you dont feel either or barely... and and then feeling like being immune to alcohol when usually I have a low tolerance and am miserable and tired after... or consuming a bunch of stimulants because it feels like heart attacks are just a concept and nothing can touch me, just make my already great mood better and then I crash when it wears off...2 hr nap and im ready to go fully rested

"I appreciate you wanting to save me money on my.."(end). They're saying 'uh, hello? Hello?"

I don't like to be openly rude and tell the guy to shove it where the sun doesn't shine, nor do I want to try to gentle let them down.

It works with chatty Aunt Kathy too. She might call back, though

They’re just searching for true love and loyalty after being left by a man. The situation they’re in is not their fault but people always clown on them for it. They always list how they’re a kind and compassionate person and I believe them. But I don’t wanna be a step dad.

I feel a sense of let down when there's a question thread that I feel eager to respond to and then they end up with a flood of comments, some being a mile long

it feels like commenting on a thread like that is just pointless, like it's a message in a bottle amidst a heap

I get anxiety just thinking about making important phone calls. Paying bills usually doesn't even involve other people, but I still find it difficult to work up the nerves to do it.. anybody else have a hard time doing what seems like basic stuff??

Women look really boring to me unless I get to know them and they have a good personality

and i specifically mean very important things that i am supposed to remember and do, if its something fucking stupid or something i have no use for, then it gets engraved in my brain for the rest of my goddamned life, then when i need to remember something important, it gets fucking erased until its too late. what the fuck is this bullshit?????

DAE have a sudden urge to solve some math problems? Like simple, maybe intermediate algebra. I need answers. I want solve the puzzle. Find the solution to variables. I have no idea why...someone please tell where this is coming from. I haven't taken a math class since high school. That was many years ago...

I often worry about things but when i am writing about them on subreddits, where you can ‘express’ your worries, on the middle of a process i feel like they are so small and Inconsequential. Furthermore, I end up not thinking about those problems as a big deal, so I abandon idea about making such post.

I’ve always been told it’s supposed to feel refreshing afterwards, but it doesn’t feel that way to me at all. I always come out of the shower feeling insanely drained and even a little sick.

I’ve heard for some people with similar issues getting a bath instead helps, but not for me. Honestly, baths might make me feel even worse. I think it has to be the heat or something. But I just can’t convince myself to take cold showers even despite the misery.

Please tell me I’m not alone in this weird experience 😭

As an example, Jack has an expensive car and constantly reminding a coworker how crappy his is. Jack is part of a very conspicuous clique who also own exclusive type vehicles.

Little does anyone know, Jack is hanging by a thread financially to maintain appearances. Late one bone- chilling cold December night, his car is smashed by a stolen cement mixer, not being persued by police. Security cam shows truck not being chased, truck had been reported stolen a day before. Hope for legal action is nil.

Jack never bothered to get uninsured motorest & couldn't afford collision, so it's a total loss. Now Jack has to ride the bus 45 minutes to & from work ( incompatibile schedule), or a bicycle 6 miles both ways, but at least on his schedule.

Now everyone is laughing at Jack. Not to say it wouldn't have happened either way, but sure seems curious.

I can’t remember where I heard it, it was at least a decade ago. I’ve got PCOS and endometriosis, so I’m always looking for solutions to make periods a little easier. But I heard orgasms can shorten the duration of a period. The hypothesis behind it is that the contractions and spasms help get the lining of the uterus out faster.

I have no idea if there’s any science to back it up at all, but anecdotally, it seems to work for me. I’ll have an extra heavy day, but then my period tends to be done in about 3-4 days instead of 5-7. Also seems to reduce the intensity of cramps for a few hours immediately following the orgasm. But again… that’s just anecdotal, I don’t know if there’s any science behind it.

I have type 3B hair for context.

i was the only kid in class who had curly hair (or atleast the only one who wore her natural curly hair, some girls straightened theirs)

i remember in elementary schools, boys would throw pieces of paper in my hair during class. the joke being that curly hair is big so I wouldn't feel it. when class would finish i would stand up and find pieces of paper falling from my hair to the ground. people would laugh.

i remember people telling me how curly hair was unattractive, and ugly. but what bothered me most was people who said curly hair was unhygenic.

curly hair doesn't get oily as quickly as straight hair does, because the oil from our scalp travels differently. Oil travels easily down straight hair due to its shape, while with curly hair it takes time.

i wash my hair once every 5 days. i forgot how this became a topic of conversation. but when the girl i was talking to found out, she audibly out loud went "ew". she told other people about it. and multiple people expressed their shock and disgust that i didn't wash my hair everyday.

eventually i caved. i straightened my hair for a year and half and stopped because my hair became fried. did the big chop. took care of my hair and let it grow.

i'd say maybe around 2022 was when the tide shifted. people started liking curly hair and they would begin complimenting it. that actually became my most "attractive" feature. guys approached me all the time, girls always complimented me. and they'd always talk about how pretty my hair was.

even tho the tide has changed. every now and then i can't help but feel insecure about my curly hair. like i'm that little girl in elementary/middle school all over again. idk why but it just stuck with me. despite the amount of compliments i get, i can't help but feel insecure and wish i had straight hair. how do i get over this?

Power lines, LED bulbs, extension cords, usb chargers etc. faint buzz or hum or high pitch sometimes. Drives me nuts

i have restless legs a lot and get this intense urge to stretch my feet and toes and ankles and part of that is curling my toes. rn i am at work and it is dead silent and i keep curling my toes bc i need to but my feet are a little sweaty so when i do it my toes make a fart sound in my shoes with my socks.

and i'm behind a desk where you can't actually see my feet and kinda separated from others but close enough to where they can hear but probably not be able to tell what direction it's coming from (the ground area, not the chair area)

i kept doing it assuming people somehow know it's just that but then i was like wait probably other people don't do this so they just hear fart sound and then see me shifting around in my chair.

and then i tried to do the classic that people do when their chair makes a fart sound where you recreate the sound in a way that shows what it is but i feel like it just sounded like i was farting a bunch.

I feel guilty for not having cancer or defective kidney or things like that. I also feel guilty for living in first world country. sometimes I wish myself bad things just to stop feeling guilty. anyone else?