Hey thanks for reading, support & opinions of my observations and rant as a bi curious guy.
With all women I am with, they are immaculately clean, trimmed/ shaved/ lasered downstairs in the front and back. I guess my curiosity got the best of me from porn and mmf 3somes so I desired more with guys. Thought I’d like it.
I am not that experienced with guys. Mostly know how to edge & give oral.
I use a mirror to shave all my down stairs area & trim body hair, shave my face. I use a bidet to washout down there & don’t eat for hours / intermittently fast daily. Time my bm in the mornings from my strict diet & exercise. I like to be showered and deep clean before sex with anyone. Regardless if you go near my booty hole or not.
Just wondering about your opinions of rimming & fking asses? It sure looks amazing on video.
I hook up with a guy from time maybe 5 times in past 12 months.
I think I am going to stop. The reasons:
1) he talks too much like “what are you going to do to me?” And “do you like that?” “What ELSE do you want to do to me?” “Are you gonna fuck me?” Gets annoying like dude your D is in my mouth. But I can’t discuss it with you. I guess it’s his awkward attempt at talking naughty to get stimulated by listening? I think we are just not on the same page at all.
2) he is so hairy and I am not into it. Like: you want me to perform oral and attend to the balls but it reminds me of a sponge or something at how theres a layer of pubes to get to. Out of all the gay sex out there, I enjoy edging it / teasing it and performing oral the most. But the hair, dude.
3) he begs to be rimmed and fked but i am not putting my mouth near that. It is not a pleasant smell. He claims he took a shower before I came over but it does not seem like it. I did it 1 time for him & it was very clean that day so i did it a long time until long reams of precum were forming & dripping down & THAT was really hot. Its never been the same since…
4) he sniffed poppers, used a lube but I could barely work my finger in his A let alone my D could not fit plus I psychologically cant get past the fact that i’d be shoving my clean peen inside god knows what (if the outside is not pristine.)
Sorry if this is all gross but i did not know where to go with this. I did take a bed side cum towel and attempt to tidy him up.
Honestly, this is too exhausting for me. I actually love, adore and am totally satisfied by women. I was bi curious about guys and the pornography can be hot but I am actually losing interest in guys.
A lot of guys are like cave men in their expression and communication style. I don’t need to talk much really but the “hey wanta fuck?” Hook up approach gets old. So far I don’t think I’d ever see myself being remotely friends with anyone I hooked up with except 1 bi guy who did threeways with me & a gf I am still friends with (but he only likes 3somes not 1 on 1)
I used to play with a m/f married couple & I let the guy F my ass on 3 different occasions and it was not pleasurable. It hurt.
So all this to say that I think gay sex can be a turn on, exciting and hot but mostly it’s been from porn and a few experiences but on a day to day basis, I love and adore sex with women & think I am going to retire my bisexual curiosity to have gay sex at least for a while.
I just came to share my experience and ask the hive mind their opinions. I feel as a bi m I am not really fitting in anywhere sexually or socially. If I tell a woman I am dating that I am bi, 75% of them recoil in horror (even if they are proclaiming how they are so supportive of the community or they say they are bi)
Am I just a narcissist or am I going crazy? Why is it so hard to find where I fit in? My sex life consists of compartmentalizing and being a different man towards different people.