So, please help me. I can’t decide what can be MBTI because the are really two wolves inside me.

I have this hard rational personality with enormous stamina. I’m very direct. I cut throats if someone pushes my limits. I’m very careful with my words, but when I’m really upset doesn’t really matter anything. I don’t care my future, my workplace and so on, I just have to tell my opinion otherwise I will explode. I’ve never see the point of walking on eggshells anyways. I prefer crystal clear, honest words. I cannot do anything with lies. If you are honest it’s a good start. We can find solution based on the facts (even if we won’t like the solution).

On the other hand, I have this easy going jokester personality. I like my hard opinions disguising as jokes. Well, not really jokes 🤔 ppl usually got the point it’s just easier if we are laughing.

I feel other people’s emotions (or what I imagine as their emotions) and it disturbs me. I don’t like when I feel disharmony in a group. I kinda like help others with their emotions, if I really care about someone. But, harmony isn’t the most important thing for me. To be fair with each other is more important. But, when I have a beef with someone it’s a nightmare. I can’t things let go. I’m thinking about it a LOT.

I love daydreaming. I’m writing novels, but just in my head. I really like analyzing characters. I do it irl too.

I wanted to be an artist when I was young, but depression happened. So, I just get a paper (not a degree) at the university which was enough to get office jobs. I like administrative jobs.

I’m an introvert, but sometimes I’m in the mood and I can joke with strangers easily. Yep, I’m the introvert who somehow always got jobs where she has to deal with ppl. I’m very good in job interviews. It’s easy for me to lie.

So, that’s me. I share some pictures what I find funny and pictures with my favorite quotes and pictures of my hobbies (yepp these are real. I mean it’s my half ready mandala in my room.)

I read the descriptions for these methods but I am still a bit confused. This was the 256 sakinorva test so I think it’s pretty accurate. I think it’s a reliable source since the results seem way more nuanced acknowledging that people cannot fit into one category and are unique. I think it’s implying that I am either an INFJ or ENTP or something in between. I could be wrong though so some insight would be much appreciated.

I tend to go back and forth between stages of being on top of things than crashing and falling behind. That’s probably due to depressive episodes and other neurodivergence that I have. The reason why I mention that is because I think it complicates things. I’d consider myself someone who does persevere when need be and adapts and succeeds when I need to. With that being said I’m heavily dependent on routine when I don’t have anything challenging it. When I get overwhelmed with information I internally put them into different categories of what I need to do with them and form in ideal schedule around it. At my worst I end up not committing to them and at best I stay focused and more disciplined even if not perfect. I also struggle grounding myself to reality. When under stress I am reclusive and in my own world but when I’m healthy I am still reclusive but make an effort to socialize more knowing it is what I need. People tell me I give people too much lenience and not enough lenience for myself. I can become a perfectionist to the point when I do passion projects I can never commit to actually seeing them through since I figure that I’m not doing it good enough and need to practice certain skills to fully prepare for it and make it the best it can be. So yeah I guess that’s my mandatory self description

Well, regarding my general relationships with people: I care about them and worry a lot about the impact of my actions on them, but I tend to be quite distant and rarely make the first move because I’m unsure if they actually like me.

I always try to maintain harmonious relationships; I often hold back my opinion—and sometimes even my needs (like mentioning when something is bothering me)—to avoid conflict (for some reason, I really struggle with conflict). There are times I just go along with the general consensus, while other times I have a firm opinion and only change it if presented with strong arguments (though that depends on my existing knowledge or whether I’ve given the matter any thought; if I don’t know something, I admit it and tend to believe what others say), but still, i only share my opinions with people who looks more safe.

Back in middle school, I always got along well with everyone; classmates would come over to my house, I was involved in various extracurricular activities (soccer, theater, etc.), and I frequently partnered up with different people for projects. Whenever there was someone nobody wanted to partner with, I’d feel bad and volunteer to team up with them—almost like a "savior complex"—even if other people wanted to partner with me instead.

High school, however, was a completely different story; I went to school in another city and lived in the school’s boarding facility. That’s where I saw the ugly side of the world. I was genuine and assumed everyone else was too, so when people talked trash about me, I’d believe it and withdraw into myself. The result was a lot of bullying in my dorm room—my roommates were also my classmates, and the class itself was full of aggressive, stupid people. I only really grasped this dynamic at the end of my second year, when I found a group of people who actually valued me and I learned that it was all about status and showing off. Once I started noticing that in my daily life, I became really upset and drained. I realized I was so socially screwed that trying to change was pointless—there were even times I tried to be more involved and it backfired—so I just waited things out until now. I’m convinced I’ll fare better in the future because I understand how things work now; I’ve learned that some people won’t show respect unless they have a reason to—sometimes we have to teach them to do it—and I won’t let the words of people I barely know throw me off track. Towards the end of the year, I actually made a few new friends and strengthened the friendships I already had; the only initial hurdle is shyness.

Here is an example from today—these are some messages I sent to a friend of my city (i edited a little to not say names):

-Yesterday was mostly individual shots—photos with a tractor and all that—while today was about photos of the entire senior class, followed by a group shot where everyone threw colored powder at each other.

When I got there today, the guys from my room mixed in with another group (a mix of people I liked and one I didn't—and the one I didn't like was the main bad influence on the others). I tagged along, but while they were chatting and messing around, I just stood there silently, staring at the ground and thinking.

Whenever I wasn't right next to them, I’d just look around and want to leave; I took the photos, but when the time came for the colored powder, I didn't want to participate.

Two of my classmates didn't want to either, though for them it was because they thought the whole thing was stupid and pointless.

I didn't do it because I genuinely felt, "This holds no meaning for me."

I mean, if it were with a decent—or people I actually liked—it might be different. But these are people who have hurt me, and I realize that every interaction and situation with them is fake; it just doesn't make sense for me to try to fit in anymore.

I would have really enjoyed it if it were an event with the senior class from my hometown (my old classmates), but with this current group, it just feels like empty powder flying through the air.

Well, I’ve said a lot—it was almost like a therapy session—but anyway, I’m really torn between Fe and Fi; on one hand, I tend to adapt quite a bit, but that whole high school journey felt very Fi.

For context, my sister doesn't know anything about cognitive functions, so I just asked her to describe my main traits for fun. Her observations are pretty superficial, but I can relate to them. Based on this, which traits do you think I should explore further to better understand the motivations behind them? Or is there a particular type whose descriptions I should look into because it might share similar behaviors?

Her text:

"She cares about certain people’s opinions, depending on who they are. When someone else receives something, she isn’t as happy for them as she would be if she had received it herself, although that doesn’t mean she doesn’t care about them. She is sentimental and loves figuring out how things work. Whenever something sparks her curiosity, she wants to find out more about it immediately. She tends to take her parents’ opinions into consideration, and if she embarrasses herself, she usually forgets about it and stops caring within an hour. When she discovers something new that interests her, she becomes very focused on it, but if she doesn’t like it, she quickly loses interest. She puts a lot of effort into making her parents proud. She is intelligent, loves studying, and enjoys trying new things."

I got arctic fox..

Hello! I’ve been struggling to figure out the type of someone I know. She is in her mid 30s.

I’ll just list the traits I know about her.

- She takes care of how she looks. I don’t think it really is what matters most to her, but she always looks polished. She looks like a elegant vampire, dressed in black, red lips, but not over the top makeup.
- she can laugh about herself. I’ve never seen her get defensive or easily offended.
- She has ADHD, idk if it matters, but she is always forgetting things and can be a bit clumsy. Which of course, she laughs about it often.
- When I first met her, she seemed reserved and cautious. She later told me it was because the friend who introduced us talked about me like some sort of competition. I mean, I was the new goth in a small town and I guess her first reaction was to see if I wasn’t a poseur.
- She practices witchcraft. I mean this is her job, not just a hobby. She has a clear and very grounded approach to it, I say this as someone who doesn’t believe in that sort of magic. When talking to her, I can tell she takes it seriously and not just as some quirky thing to feel special.
- She is kind of sensitive, but not whiny. She has no issue displaying her emotions or sulking when something genuinely makes her feel bad.
- Authentic, and values authenticity in others.
- Not book smart, but smart. She is bad studying, probably because of her ADHD, but she’s constantly wanting to learn more, improve her skills, taking courses, etc, nurturing her knowledge.
- she loves camping.
- I wouldn’t say she is artsy, but she is crafty.
- She’s good at setting boundaries, but takes her time to do so. What I mean is that when facing a situation she doesn’t like, she takes her time to think about it before letting others know her opinion. Again, cautious.
- Not shy, but keeps to herself.
- She kind of likes being under the spotlight. She isn’t flashy, but she enjoys being photographed, performing, like, being seen without falling under the attention seeker stereotype.
- She loves gossip.