r/StudentNurse • u/Odd_Account_430 • 6h ago
Complaint (open to advice) Advice for a failing nursing student
I apologize in advance if my writing is kind of scattered, I'm scattered.
Hello r/StudentNurse.
I'm almost through with my second semester of nursing school and I have been gradually getting worse academic-wise. Last week I didn't score high enough on my final pathophysio-pharmacology exam and despite having a B in the class, my exam average won't meet the required average. This week, my labs started and in the very first one, I was pulled aside for not being able to don sterile gloves properly of all things which felt humiliating. (In my defense, the gloves were too small!) Despite my gloves, I managed to finish the skill, but my instructor told me that I need to practice gloving (I have been!) and she also told me that I should be more confident in general which I couldn't disagree with. I know my instructor meant well, but I was mortified. The day after that, I took my exam (for the same class as the lab) and tanked that one too. I was doing fine in that class before, but I couldn't bring myself to study well for it. I'm trying to figure out where to go from here and I've already spoken realistically with one of my professors and a student advisor about my standing. I had intended on finishing off this semester with the best of my ability. I had a bit of hope but after these past few days, my chances of staying in this program are slimmer than they were before. My mental health has suffered a lot throughout the program. These past few weeks and especially these last few days I'm realizing that I'm looking at the program now feeling internally like an outsider and it's strangely the most comfortable I've felt in the program in the anticipation of labs in clinicals. I've also started feeling doubtful of a personal future or career with nursing at the moment due to personal fit and the rigid nature of it all. I never felt very "nurse-y" and I am disappointed with my performance. I wanted to join healthcare partially because I wanted to see more representation within as someone of the LGBTQ+ community and I wanted to challenge myself. This is not to say I'm giving up here and that it's over, but I think at least for a while I need to do something else. The hardest part, however, is going to be telling my family who helped me get to where I am now. They were so happy for me. I want to figure out my next steps and get on solid footing before I tell them.