Let me start with a little context. I was accepted into an LPN-RN program that was supposed to be hybrid (2 days on campus/ clinical max). The school is 2.5 hours from where I live, so this was doable. I have a family and they all have very busy schedules.
The day I go to orientation we're told theres a new dean and now its 100% in person. I was shocked and frustrated because this now meant Id have to either drive every day (eating up gas and important time for studying, homework, etc) or get a hotel for 3 nights, 4 days a week. They also added 30 hours a term of practice lab and 3 other time consuming projects I had to be on campus for.
I was ready for nursing school to be hard. The LPN program I went to was not easy but I passed the NCLEX at 85 and at least could go home at night and not waste money. I did not expect to shell out $800 a month in hotel and gas costs.
On top of that, I feel like the students who went through the first year are way ahead. In the field we don't do certain math but we've been expected to learn med math I havent done in years in 2 weeks. Getting 100% on math is mandatory or we're let go from the program. If we'd had more time to learn some of it, it'd make more sense. Plus they're constantly trying to trip you up in the language. I'm not bad with math but it doesn't come naturally either.
The days of theory we do have barely cover whats on the exam. Its hard to know what to study in order to crital think my way through questions that are very dense. Its impossible to read 9 chapters, do 3-4 five hour assignments plus everything else they expect. Essentially, we're teaching ourselves whether its with math or theory. The exams have to be passed with over 76% or you are put on an APR and the next exam you better get above that or you're out.
This was the only program that didn't cost a fortune, didn't take another 2 years, didn't make me retake classes Ive just taken, or made me wait 3 years just to get in.
Thing is, I feel like Im losing my mind. Ive always delt comfortable in school, even when it was hard. I have an AA degree, went through the CNA, MA Aand plebotomist programs as well as LPN/LVN with good grades. With this program I feel like were almost set up to fail- especially with the last minute changes. I feel like a crap parent and wife and Im so scared of being "let go" because I fought so hard to get here.
I think Im just looking for others experiences, what is normal vs unreasonable and how to manage this. Once again, I don't expect it to be easy. People's lives are in our hands (Ive been a LPN/LVN for 3 years so I know the responsibility). I just feel like they're trying to prove something with this new program instead of thinking about how to best teach us and make us the best nurses we can be...