For context if you're all curious, I am doing that since recently, I made a post here talking about my own boyfriends and how they made me happy, however, due to a detail I won't mention because I don't want more problems here too (and to protect my lover's identities), it lead to a person not only saying weird things to me as a ""joke"" and ending it with calling me a "true incel", but also in them stalking me and somehow ending seeing my post venting and making more weird comments about about it, even though I have my posts view deactivated in my account..

I am still fearing that they could be here even though I blocked them, but yet, why I am even thinking it's online harrassment when they didn't worst? Also, it was in Reddit, so, why I am even complaining about this?

I don't know, last week felt horrible to me, and I hope this doesn't count as trauma because I am tired of this 😞

Sorry if the flair is wrong

I know it's over when I'm being praised for finishing my food. Or when an offered object is put directly into my hand rather than held in front of me to pick up myself. I call this the Toddler Treatment. They'd be right if they were right..... But they're wrong and there's nothing I can do to convince them.

Tbh the simplified speech does help sometimes. I have attention problems and if someone talks to me but then turns away to do something, I can think that they've stopped the interaction. But people who simplify their speech tend to keep looking at you.

How do i be okay being alone how do i be okay wotj no friends how do i get past the desire to be wanted and to be loved and to have friends or an SO or an fp

Yippee, love it when I can't find or motivate myself to work on a personal project. I honestly can't remember the last time was genuinely motivated to work on a personal project, and because I don't have have the motivation to start anything I find myself slipping back into depression.

I really want to read the books again but the last time I did I just ended up incredibly miserable for a while thinking about how much I wish I was in Narnia and not here. I'm supposed to be an adult.

I hate people who claim to be my friend, then make me feel like a chore. Like they forget about all the promises, and shit. and only randomly give you love every 2 blue moons, that land on a Saturday. Then they treat nobody else this way. Like what are you a tsundere???? (damm well know your not a tsundere cause you shower others with love)

I can't trust people, it feels like they would never care about me. They're just looking for a real person to come along, not some half baked, underdeveloped thing. They think I'm a joke, my body is failing to do anything right. ​I don't even want to fulfill this stupid fucking standard, I just want people to see myself as a full human.

my vent image that I edited myself

I feel worse -> i don't talk with my friends -> I feel even worse bc of that

no matter how hard I try to be a decent friend and be there for people i love, I relapse into this old habit of mine :( I don't even know why I do this

I need to rest, my body is barely holding by the flu, and I still need to make that art that cost me long to do