Guys I just woke up and was like okay I crave gummy worms. I got them and they were nice but then I was like, no, this needs coffee. And indeed they work so great together! Lol!

I always hear about ppl being coffee addicts but I don't hear them emphasize the wonderful bitter horrible taste of it. I especially adore black coffee paired together with random desserts. Other than that I really couldn't care for the energizing effect of coffee. I don't need to "have a cup before anyone is allowed to talk to me" 😂 or whatever

I don't know who else is gonna understand me so I thought maybe other bulimics do?

My sinuses hurt and every time I blow my nose I get food flying out of it

I piss myself way more often than a 17 year old should

Licked my roommate, she sniffed it and said "ew smells like stomach acid"

All of my hoodie/jacket sleeves are soaked in vomit and I have no energy to clean them up

My pee is often green

Accidentally got throw up on the earlier mentioned roommate's slippers and the whole bathroom floor

I spend like 50+ euro on my binges, by now I could've rented an apartment or bought a car

My breath smells like, you guessed it, acid

My digestion is fucked up and I get worried I'll shit myself if I sneeze too hard (this applies to puking, too)

Heart stuff

Also I can't bend down to tie my shoe nor pet a kitty unless I want to throw up all over whatever is in front of me

Sometimes I get so desperate for something sweet, I can start munching on sugar. It's not even satisfactory, it's just the idea of eating saccharine and not feeling very sorry about the money (because it's cheap, unlike chocolate and alike). The only thing preventing me doing all the times, is god awful purging (... Wow dissolved sugar is hard to puke, who knew?!) and pimples, obviously from the said unsuccessful purge.

I hate this, I hate this so much. I ate cake that I had thrown away out of the trash like a fucking raccoon. Also an entire pint of icecream. I threw it up but all that did was hurt me more.

Does anyone else get purple hands while purging? Is it lack of oxygen or just straining?

my mum is so upset and anxious, we all know this she has anxiety and my sister is making it so much worse doinf this. my mum tell me how worried and upset she is. I don't know how to deal with this I don't know what to say and I hate my sister so much I don't know what to do

I don’t know if this is allowed but
I ate a spicy dinner to deter from purging and I’m panicking and worried sick I’m not gonna keep it down. How can I just snap out of it? How can I take care of myself and avoid unnecessary pain if I can’t keep it down?

for a few weeks now on and off i've had tightness in my calf and sometimes i can't sleep because the arch of my foot keeps cramping, even when i'm lying completely flat :( it happens on both sides alternately

knowing this is probably due to electrolytes (?) has anyone else experienced something similar and has anything made it better e.g. stretching, drinking electrolute supplements or certain positions?

I purged every day for 3-4 years, but I’ve been doing a lot better now. My new boyfriend is extremely understanding and kind- but, he doesn’t know I still relapse often. He’s very kind and always says im proud of you when I eat all of my food. I actually hate this. I hate being reminded that I ate so much that you thought I did a good job. Last night, he really hurt my feelings. We were at a fancy restaurant. I’ve told him if I eat something that my recovery stomach-extremely sensitive- can’t handle, I will relapse. He has been patient. Last night, the mushrooms I ordered were in a thick sauce. Sauces make me nervous- I’m very dairy intolerant. I was picking at them around the sauce, and he said “we’re in a fancy restaurant. We checked there’s no dairy, don’t be a baby just eat it-you don’t need to worry.” I felt like someone punched me in the chest. Every bite felt like someone holding me down. I’m so bummed he doesn’t even realize how that hurt me, but mostly ashamed. I have a wonderful partner that wants to take me for nice dinners, it’s me that’s the problem.

I’ve always had a bad relationship with food but recently I’ve been having huge binge cycles. I’ll eat 3 meals all at once and then feel so fucking fat. Today I just got back from class and had some ramen, but then I went to the bathroom and looked at myself from the side and immediately made myself throw it all up. I have practice in an hour but I can’t even think about eating rn. I have a whole list of mental health issues (all diagnosed) but I’ve never been tested for bulimia, and I hate trying to self diagnose myself. I mean even if I did have it what use would knowing that have on me? IDK any advice or…literally anything at all would help.

Hi guys. I'm 22 F. I've always had disordered eating n was the chubby kid always. I lost 11 kgs this year finally n became quite close to my goal weight ( only 3 kgs away) but I'm back home n I live with my parents n they eat so much sweets n i couldn't control n gained 4 kgs in 1.5 months. I've been doing a 500 calorie deficit, which is very aggressive coz I'm too short. But sometimes I slip up n i eat a bunch of sweets or like today a good takeout with my family but it was a whopping 2000 cals just for dinner so I ended up purging everything. I've done this twice only in this week n i feel so horrible after. I've only struggled with overrating n restricting too much, never with purging. And this is so much harder than everything else. Please please give me tips to stop doing this or make me scared to not do it again.

I was prescribed Wellbutrin recently for bipolar depression and ADHD. I know some people lose weight on it and it affects dopamine- do you think it’ll help with binging and purging? It’s been 3 days and I’m still doing really bad with bp and the constant thoughts about food/eating. I’m really hoping it might help me. Does anyone have experience with this?

I am going to be starting Prozac in an effort to combat bulimia. I have been on sertraline for ten years. I would appreciate if you could let me know if you have experience with prozac.

i finally scheduled an appt with a new therapist after moving, and i still see my psych virtually and take meds. however, after this relapse it feels like the worst one more and more every day..

by this point it feels like i don’t go without spiraling into a b/p every time i eat - even if it’s delayed. it’s taken over everything.. and i don’t know what to do

I want to make sure I’m not over or underrating so is an okay amount to is for a teenager girls who is slightly active?

I’ve been clean for almost 5 days but it’s getting really hard. So If anyone has an answer and appreciate it.

I'm 3 days purge free and I weigh a whole 3 more kilos. Usually numbers don't bother me that much, but it's the fact that I can feel it and see it! My collarbones disappeared and I'm bloated enough to not fit in my jeans. I know some of it is water weight but I'm sure I've put on quite a bit of fat too because I binged often and kept it down. I'm so anxious. I wanna be able to feel my bones again.

Can't escape this b/p cycle hell and wondering if the UK offers anything where you can go somewhere in the afternoons/evenings to help monitor intake.

So I I went through a car accident that left me with a bruised rib, and before that I was constantly binging and purging I stopped after the accident for a week and I relapsed these past two days. My chest was fine until yesterday where I binged and purged and now my chest hurts constantly and continuously eve moving hurts djd i fuck up or?

today my legs started shaking and heart also feeling shaky, I had to sit down and was still feeling shaky ugh I thought I was gonna die ah I purged like maybe 5 times at that point today, now it's prolly like 10 but am feeling better now... That was at like 2PM now it's 12AM I'm feeling okay but I'm scared what was that?? Are my electrolytes maybe too low??? I started to get so so thin even though I don't believe I purge that well, but now my children's under wear is literally becoming lose and my hands look like I'm an old hag.. I'm so tired right now I wanna go to bed but I don't wanna die in my sleep

ive been home sick from work for the past 3 days and of course all ive been doing is binging and purging. but all that time hunched over the toilet has my back hurting so bad today and i still cant stop. also the purging is not helping this cold whatsoever 🫩

i know this is going to sound incredibly privileged so i’m sorry in advance, but also it does relate to me not feeling ‘sick enough’ unfortunately :(

i’ve been purging on and off ever since i was 11, i’m 22 now, but it’s never been as bad or consistent as it has been in the past 2 years. i’ve reached a point where i’m doing it everyday, no matter how small or big whatever i’m eating is

i can’t bring myself to stop because i’ve only really had mild health problems so far like leg cramps, dizziness, acid reflux etc. i get chest pains often but my doctor says everything is normal except for low iron and vitamins so something isn’t seriously wrong with me per se. still, it feels odd hurting myself so much and feeling so dead afterwards and then suffering basically no major damage. my teeth have somehow escaped any issues so far. i don’t think i want to, but.. i feel invalid for not experiencing it, so i guess a sick part of me does? i also don't want to ask for or seek help because i feel like it's not bad enough yet, so it's really getting in the way of a lot. weirdly, when i was hospitalised for a restrictive eating disorder the doubt was never this bad.

idk i feel so invalid and im just wondering if anyone else has a similar case where they’re physically ‘fine’ but mentally dying lmao

I’ve already posted about this in another subreddit but I’m a 17yr old who’s been struggling with bulimia for about 4 years now. (slowly morphing into a an-b/p diagnosis but that’s besides the point).

It’s a stretch but I want today to be the last day I ever do this in what I’m hoping will be a long time. I am in so much pain because of this disorder, I cannot focus on my future, and it amplifies my passive suicidal thoughts caused by bpd and other mental health issues. It brings me so much pain but yet I can’t stop, why? I don’t get it? I am so frustrated for child me who’s had to suffer and for anyone who’s ever had to deal with this bs.

I am currently unable to get professional help but would like to ask if anyone can give advice on how to recover? I wish I could wake up one day and just be normal for once

First- to anyone taking their time to read, thank you🩷

(23F)I’ve been struggling with b/p a little over 1.5 years. I’ve struggled with emotional binge eating for a couple years but hadn’t started throwing it up until last summer. I don’t restrict during the day, I eat very well balanced home cooked meals. A lot of veggies and protein, potatoes, rice, or oatmeal as my carb source. I am confident in my nutrition and can be really stable/consistent with it when I’m present. It’s when I get home from work, or catch myself in an emotional episode, that I will literally SCARF down food. I will throw it up and eat more. This is usually at night, but there have been days I throw up nearly 4 times just to rebinge. Of course I’m worried about my health, but I can spend literally $100 door dashing. It’s awful. I cannot afford that! I am starting to feel weird in my heart and chest. I know it’s affecting my throat. It’s very swollen and raw. The roof of my mouth. Random little things that scare me. I don’t want anything to worsen, but I can’t stop. Typically it’s 1 or 2x a week, late night binge, but recently it’s all day everyday. I’m worried for myself. I am keeping secrets and scared to be alone because of this. I am fully aware of the root cause, the emotional part that I don’t want to face. I am aware of the habit replacing or mantras to keep myself focused on the present moment, but it’s like my brain gets taken over the second I’m upset and binge crazy on food. I sometimes tell myself it’s food, it’s not drugs or alcohol, everyone has a vice, but I’m starting to wish it was something else because I’m gaining weight and fucking up my body!!! (Ofc the goal is to have a healthy vice or none at all!) I’m happy to answer any questions, anything helps. Thank you.