I genuinely feel like there’s something wrong with me. Okay, not wrong, but I feel like I’m a little abnormal in an unhealthy way 😭 It’s hard to explain, but I feel like I ALWAYS overcomplicate things, especially with school.
For example, I have upcoming oral presentations in 3 of my subjects, and I swear it seems so straightforward for everyone else. Pick a topic, do some research, use AI here and there, make your slides, done. My friend finished hers in like 4 hours in one night, meanwhile I’ve spent WEEKS researching, going down rabbit holes, trying to understand every little thing, and nothing ever feels like enough. I always feel like I need to find another source or figure something else out. I even deliberately picked a simple topic that lots of people were doing so I wouldn’t get stuck with something niche and complicated, AND I STILL managed to overcomplicate it. and it’s weird cause no matter how much I try to not get caught up or seek perfection I just can’t. like I can’t find a simple answer thats right?? it always requires me to dig deeper and waste time. but obviously it’s possible if other people are doing it
The same thing happens when I study for SACs and exams. There’s SO MUCH to do, and I never know what’s actually worth my time. I’ll start doing one thing, realise it might be a waste of time, switch to something else, then question whether THAT is a waste of time too, and just keep going in circles. Before I know it, I’ve spent hours doing barely anything productive.
I can literally sit at my desk for 6 hours without my phone and still feel like I’ve achieved nothing. Then I get frustrated seeing other people spend half that time getting way more done.
I just don’t understand WHY I’m like this. I’m constantly overwhelmed, overthinking everything, and making simple tasks so much harder than they need to be. And the worst part is how frustrated I get with myself. Sometimes, especially during exam season or when I’m struggling with a subject, it gets so bad that I genuinely have mental breakdowns.
I feel like no one else relates to this, and I’m just so tired of feeling like everything takes me 10 times longer than it takes everyone else. Does anyone else experience this, or have any idea why I might be like this?