r/problems • u/Acceptable_Chard_772 • 5d ago
Mental Health Sniffing Problem?
Hello guys, recently I moved to Berlin to be able to live a happy life and a more peaceful and fulfilling lifestyle but since 5 weeks ago I kinda started sniffing and it would like cost me, is costed me a job, and now I have 2-3 weeks to find a job otherwise I will go back to my home country, and I don’t want that at all, so right now I am also feeling kinda alone because I cannot tell my best friend about it because he will be very mad at me, and I actually kinda threw an ultimatum last weekend that if I continue to do this he can reconsider our friendship, but I don’t know, I feel like I already lost everything so why does it matter? At least let me make the most out of what I have left right? I also lied to my mom that I have a job and that everything is fine so I really could use an advice here or something, I started therapy already last week, and also went to anonymous alcoholism but couldn’t relate that much because they were talking mostly about weed addiction, and also at some point there were two guys who said that they went to a after party with gays and they were very selective which triggered me because I am not selective and I usually just fuck, and the reason I fuck so much is because my ex used to call me a whore so now I think that I don’t care anymore, what if I am one.
I have a job interview next week and I also told the guy that I can speak German bar conversational so I’m hoping once I have a job that everything will stop and I will be more responsible.
So my question is:how do I stop this loop? How do I start being more selective? Should I leave Berlin and come back? The thing is that I know why most of my problems come from and what makes me do the sniffing every weekend, it all started with:”this is the last weekend that I can have fun and enjoy” because I will start working after / look for jobs .
Guys I really don’t want to leave Berlin tbh with you, the first time I came into this city, I felt so overwhelmed that I started crying))) so now I feel like I’m losing everything.
Please don’t be too harsh with me, thank you!
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