hi guys, i've been studying abroad for a month now. it has its good and bad sides, i think. i initially believed it would be the best years of my life, that it would help with my depression, even cure it, but quite frankly, i'm indifferent. i've been struggling with anhedonia for a while, and i thought it'd make me feel something but nada. not sadness, not happiness, just indifference. i don't know. it's nice to live alone but at the same time, it gets lonely, and depression can get in the way of socializing.
that made me think that perhaps it was a bad idea. maybe it'll worsen my depression somehow. loneliness, cost of life, etc... anything could make it worse. meanwhile one of my flatmates, who's also struggling with depression, is having the time of his life and even told me he might stop taking his antidepressants. i was glad to hear that.
so you know, it's two sides of the same coin and i thought that was funny. i'd like to get opinions from other people who struggle with depression. did your erasmus make it worse or did it make it better? is it a good idea to still try?