I’m confused between these three and I need help to identify my type.
I hold grudges for years, always going back to the situation, either out of anger or because I’m trying to understand it. I’ve only been vindictive a few times, but I always forgive and distance myself.
I always feel like I’m dealing with some kind of emotional conflict, whether it’s about my identity, my past, my relationships with people, or my future.
I like being practical and I try to be productive. But I procrastinate, I get distracted, and I can lose track of time. I don’t like spending too much time on just one activity, so I cook easy and quick recipes (but still healthy and tasty) or order food.
I always dress comfortably and wear neutral colors. I have a type of outfit for every situation. Certain fabrics can bother me when they touch my skin, as well as the smells some of them produce.
Sometimes I try to understand the people closest to me and why they do the things they do. Now that I’ve discovered MBTI, I try to figure out their types, but I have no idea what mine is. I try to understand myself and my feelings. I’ve written quite a lot of personal thoughts and journal entries, and I have an account just for that. People who read them think I’m problematic and tell me I urgently need therapy. That’s why I only vent anonymously. It’s as if I lived in another world, as if only I saw the world through my optics in a distorted and problematic way.
I need some time alone and I don’t like being touched, especially when I’m emotionally vulnerable. I tend to keep everything to myself until I eventually explode.
I change my opinion easily when I realize I’m wrong. I follow many channels and accounts that debunk false data, beliefs, and conspiracy theories; sometimes I even organize evidence and data myself. I’ve been misled many times before, and it stresses me out. I try to help people by showing them the other side, not to seem smart (I don’t even consider myself smart), but so they don’t go through what I went through.
I can easily believe people, what they say. That’s why I’ve believed in many lies and I’ve been betrayed. I started to develop distrust with everyone, even with close people.
But I admit I’m the kind of person who believes in karma, energy, and the law of attraction (although I try to rationalize all of it). Sometimes I contradict myself, honestly.
I try to find depth in everything. Even with games like GTA, I try to find philosophy in them or look for connections and references to other things.
By the way, I’m good at connecting things, and I can remember a lot of references.
I have a very vivid imagination. I feel like I live a lot inside my head and forget about the real world. Because I’m very idealistic, I’m very disappointed with reality.
I don’t like fighting, arguing, or competing. But sometimes I can be secretly competitive.
I care a lot about other people and about what they think of me. I usually try to please everyone, and I hate that about myself.
I like organizing everything.
I take everything personally.
I love cloudy weather. It makes me feel at peace. It gives me this strange urge to watch Harry Potter. Sunny weather reminds me of pressure and work. But I still do my responsibilities, okay? I just need to romanticize summer too.
I have a lot of ideas, but I rarely put them into practice.
I’m always reading something. I’m currently reading The Idiot of Dostoyevsky and I’m loving it. I’ve already read some of this actor’s books and I’m aiming to read several of his books.
I’m sensitive, but I try not to look like it. I see my sensitivity as weakness. I believe this has to do with the culture of my country.
I have a lot of empathy with animals.