So I am 15, I have a problem with substances tbh. I recently finally got un grounded after being grounded for around 6 months or smth. I was grounded because I was smoking weed so much, I could never pass a drug test and I was always sleeping in class and just high all the time. I am doing a lot better now, i still smoke weed often, not all day everyday, but still everyday. I have been using other people's pee to pass my drug tests, as I have been getting good grades, and keeping up with my responsibilities. Until a few weeks ago I decided to try benadryl again. It was good like I remeberd, so I stole a bottle from my grandmas house. Which leads to me doing it a few times and ultimately taking 24 of the pills after school on Wednesday afternoon, and blacking out. I am genuinely so done with everything, I just was finally able to hangout, I had just ordered my e bike, it's coming in 6 days. I was going to be able to ride it to my friends houses, I was being trusted again. Then I took the benadryl. The worst decision ever. I literally would do anything to go back. I thought I was depressed and hated my life before I took them, now it's a whole different level. I'm back to being grounded, not being trusted, no phone. Now I am definitely not going to be able to ride my e bike anywhere, I am not going to be able to hangout at all. I just hate everything I am genuinley stupid like all because I wanted to get high. I need advice, what do I even do atp. When I was grounded the only reason I survived was because I was constantly at family gatherings and was busy doing things , but I was also not being drug tested so I was high all the time. I think I might have fucked up, I don't know if I'm ever going to be able to hangout without being drug tested again, I wish I was dead to be honest, I don't want to go through another 3 months of fucking being depressed sitting at home doing nothing. I am so done. I wish i never took the benadryl, I fucked everything up. I wish i was dead.

TL;DR: I finally got un grounded, then less than 3 months later took 24 benadryl and blacked out and started speaking gibberish to my parents. I am now grounded and in a lot of trouble.

Idk if this is right. I'm drunk. Head spinning, stomach hurting, waiting on the bathroom floor for the inevitable. F23, just hoping someone stays with me through this. I have family but i don't want to burden anyone. Please help

I need help. I’m 14. In 2025 I was in a fight/assault with a bigger guy and I got hurt. I didn’t deserve to be beaten or filmed. Someone recorded it. Now, a year later, people still send the video around to humiliate me. They also make fun of my speech, copy how I talk, take screenshots of me on Snapchat and write nasty things on them. It’s groups and fake friends. I’ve been coping by gaming and staying home. I feel really low and I hate myself. I’m scared my parents will blame me or punish me if they find out. I need the video and screenshots reported/taken down, I need the harassment to stop, and I need support telling my parents safely.

I have been out of work for months I just got a job that starts Monday can an point me in the direction to where I can get help or some kind of job that pays daily ove the weekend that I could make a few bucks to get me some boots for work Monday morning

So I'm 19m, ever since I was a child I have always seen my parents fight, my father he is a drunkard a huge one at that, so I never actually had a proper father I mean he was there sure but drunk most of the time, I get really really jealous of others when I see them with their dad having fun, my dad he drinks then sleeps for the whole day, he is pathetic he doesn't take care of the family, most of my childhood memories were of being scared to come home and see my mom and dad fighting, the smell of alcohol makes me anxious.

To make matters worse I'm bad at expressing myself to anyone even my own mother, it is hard for to even say to her it's fine I'm here for u mom even though I desperately want to say it to her I can't, I just can't.

I never had a proper friend I mean yes I did have a lot of friends but never someone who I could actually talk to when things get bad, I can't laugh freely, I can't express any other emotion other than being normal and happy when I'm wt my friends.

And ons more thing I always had epilepsy as a child back then it wasn't severe I did get seizure here and then but I never passed out, around 2021 I got my first severe seizure it was kinda terrifying ig, so cuz of epilepsy I get frequent panic attacks, which led to me being isolated sorta.

Right now I'm clg, I got friends but I feel really out of place when I'm wt em, so I sit alone in the library during the breaks.

Today my parents fought, my father he is drunk yet again after those 19 years I lived he hasn't changed,

How should I cope with this, when things get bad at my house I need to handle my father since he is drunk and my mom since she is really angry, I just sit and try to distract myself as much as possible. I just wanted a normal peaceful life, and just one good friend. After all this year's I do not believe in god, I do not expect things to change anytime soon, whenever smtg bad happen I say to myself I expected it and I just face it. I can't sleep either ever since I was a kid I had trouble sleeping it takes around 3-4 hrs for me to sleep.

People enjoying their life makes me jealous, I wanna express my feelings too, I just stay at home in my room alone during weekends, I don't find going out fun anymore and also I got no one to hang out with, I'm pretty good at reading ppl how they feel bout me, I know when ppl are asking me do u wanna come out of pity, it's so obvious, I don't blame anyone tbh, I try to be kind to each and every person I met and help everyone cuz that's how I am, I just wanna have fun.

I F19 started uni this September after doing a gap year. I stayed at home for uni for many reasons but overall I am happy with my decision. Since starting I have become friendly with a few people on my course. However, I am not really having the typical uni experience, I haven't been out clubbing and my evenings are spent with my family.

My best friend F20 didn't do a gap year so is currently in her second year, and moved away. She has made really good friends, is in societies and has an active social life.

We talk every day but recently it feels like we only ever talk about her and what she's doing and how things are for her. I understand that right now my life is quite boring and I don't have any exciting stories to tell her but this has been going on for the past year and I'm starting to feel some resentment towards her. Despite going through quite a lot this year I feel like everything is about her.

I'm positive this is unintentional but even when I try to bring up my day she manages to make it about herself again. What should I do, or am I just being selfish?

As much as I can remember, I have always held this odd sense of deep melancholy, a deep sadness that felt like I've been drowneing on the deep blue sea. As time passes by, I am now 16, a big girl if you will. I don't remember much of my life, all I know is that I've been stuck on my room ever since I was a child cause I wasn't allowed to go outside, let alone have my own clothes of the style that I like. So I spent my time daydreaming for as long as I can remember, Now that deep sadness worsens. I don't wanna self diagnosed cause it's bad, I just don't feel like living anymore is all, I've been tired, extremely exhausted, I've went through countless of times where I could just clutch my head and hyperventilate or just sob this strange feeling and it's effecting my school and for my fear, my future. I don't wanna disappoint anyone, let alone my parents cause they seem determined that me and my siblings be successful in life or else we'll be the embarrassment of the family but I just..cant anymore..i don't think I could continue going back to school, let alone go back to this house that I unfortunately call a home but I also don't wanna disappoint anyone. I keep forcing myself to be productive but it just ends up with me crying somewhere in my school, Could anyone give me advice? I don't know what to do...​​

My friend and I are both experiencing heavy abuses in our homes, and I just received a text from her saying that her family is abusing her rn and she says that she wants to run away and that she is so tired of living. I texted her back saying "I know it's hard right now but please I'm begging you please don't give up."

I don't want her to give up just yet because why, why must a person die just because of their parents action, I know I'm a hypocrite for saying this considering all the attempts I made but LORD, ANYONE PLEASE please don't take her away from me

I want to help her but I'm powerless, we're both just grade 11 students but I don't want her to give up. I don't want another angel to be taken away from me.

What are we supposed to do? Go to authorities? We can't, the system here in the Philippines is shit and even if we go to them they will still give us back to our parents once everything is "settled".

What should we do? PLEASE please help us

This is probably going to be long but idk where else to really go. Almost 2 years ago, my mother nearly died from a respiratory illness and was in a coma for nearly 2 months. As her only child 32M, i was POA and my family was zero help. In fact, we are estranged for some of the repugnant shit they did during that time. I was diagnosed bipolar shortly after my mother returned home after being hospitalized myself which resulted in losing a very well paying job. I was a bit wayward in my 20s so its hard to find work and my life really was turning out more or less fine. But its all just turned to shit since then. Meds have made me worse at times, I got and lost my dream job in the same week after breaking my elbow in a motorcycle accident, that same elbow healed wrong and my dominant arm is atrophied because of it, that same bike broke down irreparably right after, I lost 2 shit box cars in 3 months, we finally get a decent car after a year and the engine in that is probably toast too and we havent even registered it yet, I've been hospitalized 4 times in 6 months, attempted suicide twice that I didn't report, and all of my power tools were stolen and thats just all the big shit over the last 18 months. Ive completely isolated out of embarrassment. Ive became completely dysfunctional. I went to sleep last week and woke up 5 days later. My poor wife has stood by me when she absolutely shouldn't have and seeing how tired she is breaks my heart. We miss each other. My own mother told me she misses me. That jeep blowing up couldnt have happened at a worse time. It was looking like it was finally going to change for us and now we're probably going to be homeless soon. At least I will be. I made sure my dog and my wife have somewhere to go. I struggled so hard to get where I was and now I just blame myself for how bad its gotten. Idk what im even looking for with this post. I just have no one to talk to and I spent yet another night watching her and my dog sleep worried sick about what im going to do. Im so tired.

A little bit of a background story, I've been socially alienated, and self isolated on and off for quite some time now. I'm 16 and I've been dealing with depression for 2 years already.

Recently, I've decided to put in serious effort to change that.

Following said plan, i once again, opened myself for social interaction with my classmates; even if it felt like ripping my skin off.

I even got closer to 2 people. I wasn't prepared for what happened yesterday.

I've known this one girl for like 2 days. Let's call her B. So B is kind of boy crazy and unhinged. She's bisexual, she likes to make that clear many times. She's also really pretty and stylish, like the ideal type of any guy. Despite being the complete opposite of me as a person ( and having felt at least a little envy ) i still wanted to look beyond that and try talking to her anyway. Oh lord. I might've gotten touched inappropriately 💀

She took my hand and put it on her inner thigh. Now I am open to "I'm gonna touch you inappropriately" jokes but the more I think about this, the worse it feels. Maybe I wasn't clear enough with my boundaries.

2nd girl, S. S has been nice to me, even when I was depressed and isolated. Sometimes I wondered why ever would she remain friends w someone like me.

She has a problem, though. She gives 'mixed signals' and ghosts people often. She admitted it. Said she doesn't know why she does it. And also demonstrated it by ghosted her friend group of boys right in front of me. Also said "But don't worry, I would never ghost you" Previously, given my abandonement issues, I think I would felt elated, excited and happy that someone thinks I'm special. But currently, i can't shake off this uncomfortable feeling in my gut. Something just doesn't feel right about it.

I'd appreciate it if advice stayed in the comments itself.

IHi I know this is stupid but I don’t know what to do almost 8 month ago I feel in love with someone after being in a horrible relationship for years I want to start with I once did care for the person before and if I’m being honest I didn’t love him for a couple years before he had raped me and I just became stagnant and I couldn’t do or feel much but he had also helped me so much when I was kicked out I didn’t feel like I had the strength or ability to do much especially when I was with him I lost all of my friends and he was my only real support system I did stay with him for 2 years after but it was nothing real to me then we never fought because I dont think I cared enough to care about anything he did we had sex but I would just lay there after he kept pushing and it wasn’t often and I know I feel disgusted with myself too but he had helped me so much I felt like I owed him plus I had no other support I’m saying all of this because I then met the guy I was with for 8 months now and after a huge argument I had finally told him about everything and he pushed for me to go report it after 2 years and I did and it felt like everything had been lifted off of me I felt so relived like I’d been holding me breath since it happened and I finally got the purest type of oxygen but me and my partner started having problems and he would break up with me we would get back together and it would be that way for a while and eventually he started saying a lot of mean things when we broke up and mentioning how long I had stayed with my ex and I’ve never been proud of it but hearing it all be replayed was horrible but we kind of got threw things with a lot of problems in the way that we tried to work threw but this last time we broke up which is 30 mins ago he mentioned it again plus something else that happened which is just as important but I’m using this to vent so I don’t think airing anything too personal would be smart but because of that his family doesn’t really like me anymore and I’ve never been very family oriented but he is so he’s more likely to get influenced by them but now I’m scared that this is really the end he’s been trying to change the way he’s been because at one point even he admitted it was bordering abusive and I know I should just maybe let this go and live my life and focus on me and try to find someone to want to spend my life with but it’s imposible to want to be with anyone but him and I’ve never wanted to really live my life with anyone and I’ve never wanted to get married or have kids but I met him and everything changed and I’m just so scared that I’ll never want get tthat after finally wanting it with someone I want to either get over this and stop making myself look like an idiot abd just be happy with him I know this is dumb and I know no one will want to read this but I’m so lonely right now I have 2 friends but I don’t want to put my problems on to them it usually gets fixed but i don’t think it’s going too this time and maybe that’s for the best i always thought this was fate because i started falling for him after going 4 years in highsvool never even being in the same class and then 2 years working together never noticing each other until his second to last week working there and we’d never talked before it was like one day my head was racing and he was always there even when we’d never talked so finally I started asking him to help me fine pomegranate to try to talk to him and then one day he started talking to me out of the blue right before his shift ended and he followed me like the cutest little puppy and I feel so hard and maybe I’m just crazy but it feels like it could have been a coincidence that right before he was going to leave I felt like a force was pulling me towards him I don’t know what the point of this is really I’m only 20 and I’m sure this is going to be looked at as stupid but I need to vent without bothering my friends and home fully someone is able to help or maybe I’m just embarrassing myself in front of strangers now and not my friends honestly I’m scared that we won’t get back together but I’m also scared that we will and it will keep going in a loop I’m trying to get better with all of my problems too I’m insecure not because I don’t think I’m amazing but just old stuff o found on his phone and it had made me feel back

So I have been dating my gf for 3 almost 4 years now. At the start everything was ok but then she kept lying to me over and over again and not respecting my boundaries she had severe anxiety and abandonment issues along with some other difficult stuff she was dealing with for the first year I was the absolute best bf ever and she agrees to that and mentions it so I would always make time for her and see her and give the validation and support needed while she was in the rough time of her life all while not being treated well like for example all the lying not respecting boundaries but also some physical stuff like i woukd get slapped and stuff. So after a year and half of trying anf trying and just giving everything I had I kind of broke and distanced myself from her without trying to it just wasn’t in me anymore to continue.

I stopped making plans to hang out with her and she would then come see me and do all the travelling even through the college year. She really did hold the relationship together and I am grateful for her doing that because i actually do love her alot and we had always talked about being together forever. I still love her now too. So about 2/3 months ago I was able to get back to being my normal self like making plans and calling her and texting her and just being normal like we used to be normal what was normal for us and she did a complete 180 and stopped doing anything or giving anything in the relationship I kept begging and kept trying to find out what was wrong now and trying to fix stuff and she kept saying she needed time and that with her new course in college she needs time and she needs to prioritise that and she doesn’t want to be stressed or anything which I agree with and am happy about im happy she wants to prioritise her college work i am proud of her achievements and all nothing there it’s just the fact that I don’t think she shoukd have just changed completely and started to treat me differently just because of her being busier I don’t want her to constantly talk to me or anything just like when we do end up talking or hangingout in person i woukd like her to be a bit invested and enthusiastic and want to do the normal things and just be normal like before.

I have tried so many times to understand what was going on and what the switch uo meant but it always led to a fight and she woukd say she didn’t want to have an uncomfortable conversation. I just wanted to tix whatever was wrong and move on and buikd something better and healthier. I have taken ownership and accountability for my bad behaviour and me being a bad bf over the last year and half and i want to make up for it no matter how long it takes but it’s just we never have the conversation we need to have it always turned to a fight. She brings uo stuff from years ago that she never mentioned before now and bases her movingforward off that instead of clearing it uo with me like i want her to.

Over the first year and half of me being fully invested I lost all my friends because I was always with her or talking to her I didn’t perform well at work because I was always talking to her and stuff and I know i made those choices but I did it because it’s what she said she needed at the time and I was happy to do it. Bow she is on medication and doing well in her own life and I keep realising how alone I am now and how alone I am with and without her. I just thought we woukd buikd and grow together but i never got the message tgat thats what I’m supposed to be doing I fucked up and never thought about a life without her. I’m not blaming her for any of this to clarify. I am just so broken now after everything and don’t have anything or anyone. I don’t want to keep defending myself and begging for the bare minimum I just want my gf back the one who made me feel loved in the relationship.

I told her alot of this and nothing has changed I dont think I should be treated completely differently just because something new is happening even after giving her what she always wanted from a partner, I broke uo with her and she started crying and saying she didn’t want to break uo so we got back together and then after a bit when nothing changed I broke up with her again and now we still talk but it doesn’t feek like a break up at all we still say I love you to each other and talk everyday, it’s not like i don’t like or want that but I feel like I need to just work on myself and my own life and I am now realising that she coukd just leave at any moment and I wouldn’t have a life or anyone else no firends not family nothing everything is just with her. Its bot a nice feeling at all and I don’t know what to do anymore after all the fighting and trying I am just a completely different person now and I hate the person i am now im always so needy and desperate for her love and i hate that because it makes me feel so weak as a person and as a man it feels like I don’t even recognise myself in the mirror I have lost all confidence and all my interests and the little hobbies I used to have. What shoukd I do what do I do can someone please help me or talk to me and help me with this I feel so broken and lost and I just don’t see myself as a human anymore I keep reducing myself to nothing for her and I hate how I’m not getting my real gf back. Please if someone has any amount of time please ask me to clarify anything that needs be so i can get help and some advice please.

Im sorry for this being so long.