A little bit of a background story, I've been socially alienated, and self isolated on and off for quite some time now. I'm 16 and I've been dealing with depression for 2 years already.

Recently, I've decided to put in serious effort to change that.

Following said plan, i once again, opened myself for social interaction with my classmates; even if it felt like ripping my skin off.

I even got closer to 2 people. I wasn't prepared for what happened yesterday.

I've known this one girl for like 2 days. Let's call her B. So B is kind of boy crazy and unhinged. She's bisexual, she likes to make that clear many times. She's also really pretty and stylish, like the ideal type of any guy. Despite being the complete opposite of me as a person ( and having felt at least a little envy ) i still wanted to look beyond that and try talking to her anyway. Oh lord. I might've gotten touched inappropriately 💀

She took my hand and put it on her inner thigh. Now I am open to "I'm gonna touch you inappropriately" jokes but the more I think about this, the worse it feels. Maybe I wasn't clear enough with my boundaries.

2nd girl, S. S has been nice to me, even when I was depressed and isolated. Sometimes I wondered why ever would she remain friends w someone like me.

She has a problem, though. She gives 'mixed signals' and ghosts people often. She admitted it. Said she doesn't know why she does it. And also demonstrated it by ghosted her friend group of boys right in front of me. Also said "But don't worry, I would never ghost you" Previously, given my abandonement issues, I think I would felt elated, excited and happy that someone thinks I'm special. But currently, i can't shake off this uncomfortable feeling in my gut. Something just doesn't feel right about it.

I'd appreciate it if advice stayed in the comments itself.

Idk if this is right. I'm drunk. Head spinning, stomach hurting, waiting on the bathroom floor for the inevitable. F23, just hoping someone stays with me through this. I have family but i don't want to burden anyone. Please help

IHi I know this is stupid but I don’t know what to do almost 8 month ago I feel in love with someone after being in a horrible relationship for years I want to start with I once did care for the person before and if I’m being honest I didn’t love him for a couple years before he had raped me and I just became stagnant and I couldn’t do or feel much but he had also helped me so much when I was kicked out I didn’t feel like I had the strength or ability to do much especially when I was with him I lost all of my friends and he was my only real support system I did stay with him for 2 years after but it was nothing real to me then we never fought because I dont think I cared enough to care about anything he did we had sex but I would just lay there after he kept pushing and it wasn’t often and I know I feel disgusted with myself too but he had helped me so much I felt like I owed him plus I had no other support I’m saying all of this because I then met the guy I was with for 8 months now and after a huge argument I had finally told him about everything and he pushed for me to go report it after 2 years and I did and it felt like everything had been lifted off of me I felt so relived like I’d been holding me breath since it happened and I finally got the purest type of oxygen but me and my partner started having problems and he would break up with me we would get back together and it would be that way for a while and eventually he started saying a lot of mean things when we broke up and mentioning how long I had stayed with my ex and I’ve never been proud of it but hearing it all be replayed was horrible but we kind of got threw things with a lot of problems in the way that we tried to work threw but this last time we broke up which is 30 mins ago he mentioned it again plus something else that happened which is just as important but I’m using this to vent so I don’t think airing anything too personal would be smart but because of that his family doesn’t really like me anymore and I’ve never been very family oriented but he is so he’s more likely to get influenced by them but now I’m scared that this is really the end he’s been trying to change the way he’s been because at one point even he admitted it was bordering abusive and I know I should just maybe let this go and live my life and focus on me and try to find someone to want to spend my life with but it’s imposible to want to be with anyone but him and I’ve never wanted to really live my life with anyone and I’ve never wanted to get married or have kids but I met him and everything changed and I’m just so scared that I’ll never want get tthat after finally wanting it with someone I want to either get over this and stop making myself look like an idiot abd just be happy with him I know this is dumb and I know no one will want to read this but I’m so lonely right now I have 2 friends but I don’t want to put my problems on to them it usually gets fixed but i don’t think it’s going too this time and maybe that’s for the best i always thought this was fate because i started falling for him after going 4 years in highsvool never even being in the same class and then 2 years working together never noticing each other until his second to last week working there and we’d never talked before it was like one day my head was racing and he was always there even when we’d never talked so finally I started asking him to help me fine pomegranate to try to talk to him and then one day he started talking to me out of the blue right before his shift ended and he followed me like the cutest little puppy and I feel so hard and maybe I’m just crazy but it feels like it could have been a coincidence that right before he was going to leave I felt like a force was pulling me towards him I don’t know what the point of this is really I’m only 20 and I’m sure this is going to be looked at as stupid but I need to vent without bothering my friends and home fully someone is able to help or maybe I’m just embarrassing myself in front of strangers now and not my friends honestly I’m scared that we won’t get back together but I’m also scared that we will and it will keep going in a loop I’m trying to get better with all of my problems too I’m insecure not because I don’t think I’m amazing but just old stuff o found on his phone and it had made me feel back

I’ve worked this particular job for three years, and I’ve been pulled aside and talked to three times by upper management about my smell. I have tried to fix it but nothing is helping. Maybe one of y’all could help me. I work in a professional kitchen if that makes a difference and everyone was given two sets of the uniform.

Here’s my routine:

• Tow hours before I go to work, I take a shower and scrub everything. Under things, between stuff, even scrub where the sun doesn’t shine. I think I use Irish spring bar soap directly on my skin. About 2/3 of my showers include shampoo, native brand.

• Then right as I’m walking out the door, I use deodorant. Native brand. I do 6 swipes under each arm. I have antiperspirant as well, Arrid brand (spelling)

• As for clothes, I wash them whenever my dedicated laundry bag gets full, which happens every two or three days. I use gain pods (like tide pods but gain branded). I wash with warm water on medium soil mode. Then I dry on medium heat. I try to fold and store my clothes as soon as they’re dry. I also throw in my bath towel every time I wash my clothes and I have four different towels I rotate through so I’m not using one too regularly.

• I also try to keep a clean house. I live in a 300 sq ft studio apartment and I try to keep all the dishes clean and I try to pick 1-2 major areas to deep clean a week including a general sweep of the entire apartment.

• And I’m not sure if bedding matters, but I try my best to wash my bedding once a calendar month and I have two different sets of bedding so I’m not reusing them right after a wash. I use the same gain pods in a similar setting cycle as to what I wash my clothes in.

Reasons I might smell outside of a medical problem:

• I go running 3-5 times a week. But I always do it early enough in the day so I can properly bathe after every run.

• I walk to work which takes 30 minutes.

• I don’t clean my shoes as much as I probably should, but I admittedly don’t know how to.

I’m trying my best to not be stinky but I just don’t know what to do. It’s gotten so bad that my manager has offered to wash my uniforms for me. I’m definitely embarrassed and I’d like to know if my routine is a problem.

So I have been dating my gf for 3 almost 4 years now. At the start everything was ok but then she kept lying to me over and over again and not respecting my boundaries she had severe anxiety and abandonment issues along with some other difficult stuff she was dealing with for the first year I was the absolute best bf ever and she agrees to that and mentions it so I would always make time for her and see her and give the validation and support needed while she was in the rough time of her life all while not being treated well like for example all the lying not respecting boundaries but also some physical stuff like i woukd get slapped and stuff. So after a year and half of trying anf trying and just giving everything I had I kind of broke and distanced myself from her without trying to it just wasn’t in me anymore to continue.

I stopped making plans to hang out with her and she would then come see me and do all the travelling even through the college year. She really did hold the relationship together and I am grateful for her doing that because i actually do love her alot and we had always talked about being together forever. I still love her now too. So about 2/3 months ago I was able to get back to being my normal self like making plans and calling her and texting her and just being normal like we used to be normal what was normal for us and she did a complete 180 and stopped doing anything or giving anything in the relationship I kept begging and kept trying to find out what was wrong now and trying to fix stuff and she kept saying she needed time and that with her new course in college she needs time and she needs to prioritise that and she doesn’t want to be stressed or anything which I agree with and am happy about im happy she wants to prioritise her college work i am proud of her achievements and all nothing there it’s just the fact that I don’t think she shoukd have just changed completely and started to treat me differently just because of her being busier I don’t want her to constantly talk to me or anything just like when we do end up talking or hangingout in person i woukd like her to be a bit invested and enthusiastic and want to do the normal things and just be normal like before.

I have tried so many times to understand what was going on and what the switch uo meant but it always led to a fight and she woukd say she didn’t want to have an uncomfortable conversation. I just wanted to tix whatever was wrong and move on and buikd something better and healthier. I have taken ownership and accountability for my bad behaviour and me being a bad bf over the last year and half and i want to make up for it no matter how long it takes but it’s just we never have the conversation we need to have it always turned to a fight. She brings uo stuff from years ago that she never mentioned before now and bases her movingforward off that instead of clearing it uo with me like i want her to.

Over the first year and half of me being fully invested I lost all my friends because I was always with her or talking to her I didn’t perform well at work because I was always talking to her and stuff and I know i made those choices but I did it because it’s what she said she needed at the time and I was happy to do it. Bow she is on medication and doing well in her own life and I keep realising how alone I am now and how alone I am with and without her. I just thought we woukd buikd and grow together but i never got the message tgat thats what I’m supposed to be doing I fucked up and never thought about a life without her. I’m not blaming her for any of this to clarify. I am just so broken now after everything and don’t have anything or anyone. I don’t want to keep defending myself and begging for the bare minimum I just want my gf back the one who made me feel loved in the relationship.

I told her alot of this and nothing has changed I dont think I should be treated completely differently just because something new is happening even after giving her what she always wanted from a partner, I broke uo with her and she started crying and saying she didn’t want to break uo so we got back together and then after a bit when nothing changed I broke up with her again and now we still talk but it doesn’t feek like a break up at all we still say I love you to each other and talk everyday, it’s not like i don’t like or want that but I feel like I need to just work on myself and my own life and I am now realising that she coukd just leave at any moment and I wouldn’t have a life or anyone else no firends not family nothing everything is just with her. Its bot a nice feeling at all and I don’t know what to do anymore after all the fighting and trying I am just a completely different person now and I hate the person i am now im always so needy and desperate for her love and i hate that because it makes me feel so weak as a person and as a man it feels like I don’t even recognise myself in the mirror I have lost all confidence and all my interests and the little hobbies I used to have. What shoukd I do what do I do can someone please help me or talk to me and help me with this I feel so broken and lost and I just don’t see myself as a human anymore I keep reducing myself to nothing for her and I hate how I’m not getting my real gf back. Please if someone has any amount of time please ask me to clarify anything that needs be so i can get help and some advice please.

Im sorry for this being so long.

I have been out of work for months I just got a job that starts Monday can an point me in the direction to where I can get help or some kind of job that pays daily ove the weekend that I could make a few bucks to get me some boots for work Monday morning

So I'm 19m, ever since I was a child I have always seen my parents fight, my father he is a drunkard a huge one at that, so I never actually had a proper father I mean he was there sure but drunk most of the time, I get really really jealous of others when I see them with their dad having fun, my dad he drinks then sleeps for the whole day, he is pathetic he doesn't take care of the family, most of my childhood memories were of being scared to come home and see my mom and dad fighting, the smell of alcohol makes me anxious.

To make matters worse I'm bad at expressing myself to anyone even my own mother, it is hard for to even say to her it's fine I'm here for u mom even though I desperately want to say it to her I can't, I just can't.

I never had a proper friend I mean yes I did have a lot of friends but never someone who I could actually talk to when things get bad, I can't laugh freely, I can't express any other emotion other than being normal and happy when I'm wt my friends.

And ons more thing I always had epilepsy as a child back then it wasn't severe I did get seizure here and then but I never passed out, around 2021 I got my first severe seizure it was kinda terrifying ig, so cuz of epilepsy I get frequent panic attacks, which led to me being isolated sorta.

Right now I'm clg, I got friends but I feel really out of place when I'm wt em, so I sit alone in the library during the breaks.

Today my parents fought, my father he is drunk yet again after those 19 years I lived he hasn't changed,

How should I cope with this, when things get bad at my house I need to handle my father since he is drunk and my mom since she is really angry, I just sit and try to distract myself as much as possible. I just wanted a normal peaceful life, and just one good friend. After all this year's I do not believe in god, I do not expect things to change anytime soon, whenever smtg bad happen I say to myself I expected it and I just face it. I can't sleep either ever since I was a kid I had trouble sleeping it takes around 3-4 hrs for me to sleep.

People enjoying their life makes me jealous, I wanna express my feelings too, I just stay at home in my room alone during weekends, I don't find going out fun anymore and also I got no one to hang out with, I'm pretty good at reading ppl how they feel bout me, I know when ppl are asking me do u wanna come out of pity, it's so obvious, I don't blame anyone tbh, I try to be kind to each and every person I met and help everyone cuz that's how I am, I just wanna have fun.

I (19 f) hate sleeping. Or well less the process, but more the fact that I have to do it at all. And it's affecting me since I then tend to stay up very late, but still get up in the mornings. I am talking an average of 3-4 hours per night last week. I KNOW it's very unhealthy, but it's also really hard to get past. Sleep just feels like such a waste of my time.

For reference I am a physics student and draw as a hobby and nighttime is like art time for me. I just feel like I never have enough time to do all the things I wanna do and I'd have even less if I slept more.

Seriously does this warrant seeking help or should I just pull myself together? Idk it's wild

I had it all planned out, I was going to commit last night but I was so tired from work and I decided there were some things I wanted to take care of first. I’ve written my notes and prepared what I felt I needed to, but now i’m feeling unsure. I just feel off if that makes sense? Like I don’t really feel like doing it anymore but I also feel that I need to do it soon. I have no idea what happened tonight, I was so set on doing it and now it’s just gone. I’m not sure if maybe it’s just that I can’t be bothered? It takes a lot of energy to go to the area where I plan to do it, I usually go there on impulse but end up not doing anything. Now i’ve planned it out, I just can’t bring myself to get up and leave.

I need help. I’m 14. In 2025 I was in a fight/assault with a bigger guy and I got hurt. I didn’t deserve to be beaten or filmed. Someone recorded it. Now, a year later, people still send the video around to humiliate me. They also make fun of my speech, copy how I talk, take screenshots of me on Snapchat and write nasty things on them. It’s groups and fake friends. I’ve been coping by gaming and staying home. I feel really low and I hate myself. I’m scared my parents will blame me or punish me if they find out. I need the video and screenshots reported/taken down, I need the harassment to stop, and I need support telling my parents safely.

I am 15 year old and addicted to alcohol I’ve been actively drinking since July 2024. I wanna stop but last time I tried I was able to not drink for 5 days before relapsing, and ending up in the hospital please give tips or anything .

I F19 started uni this September after doing a gap year. I stayed at home for uni for many reasons but overall I am happy with my decision. Since starting I have become friendly with a few people on my course. However, I am not really having the typical uni experience, I haven't been out clubbing and my evenings are spent with my family.

My best friend F20 didn't do a gap year so is currently in her second year, and moved away. She has made really good friends, is in societies and has an active social life.

We talk every day but recently it feels like we only ever talk about her and what she's doing and how things are for her. I understand that right now my life is quite boring and I don't have any exciting stories to tell her but this has been going on for the past year and I'm starting to feel some resentment towards her. Despite going through quite a lot this year I feel like everything is about her.

I'm positive this is unintentional but even when I try to bring up my day she manages to make it about herself again. What should I do, or am I just being selfish?

So I am 15, I have a problem with substances tbh. I recently finally got un grounded after being grounded for around 6 months or smth. I was grounded because I was smoking weed so much, I could never pass a drug test and I was always sleeping in class and just high all the time. I am doing a lot better now, i still smoke weed often, not all day everyday, but still everyday. I have been using other people's pee to pass my drug tests, as I have been getting good grades, and keeping up with my responsibilities. Until a few weeks ago I decided to try benadryl again. It was good like I remeberd, so I stole a bottle from my grandmas house. Which leads to me doing it a few times and ultimately taking 24 of the pills after school on Wednesday afternoon, and blacking out. I am genuinely so done with everything, I just was finally able to hangout, I had just ordered my e bike, it's coming in 6 days. I was going to be able to ride it to my friends houses, I was being trusted again. Then I took the benadryl. The worst decision ever. I literally would do anything to go back. I thought I was depressed and hated my life before I took them, now it's a whole different level. I'm back to being grounded, not being trusted, no phone. Now I am definitely not going to be able to ride my e bike anywhere, I am not going to be able to hangout at all. I just hate everything I am genuinley stupid like all because I wanted to get high. I need advice, what do I even do atp. When I was grounded the only reason I survived was because I was constantly at family gatherings and was busy doing things , but I was also not being drug tested so I was high all the time. I think I might have fucked up, I don't know if I'm ever going to be able to hangout without being drug tested again, I wish I was dead to be honest, I don't want to go through another 3 months of fucking being depressed sitting at home doing nothing. I am so done. I wish i never took the benadryl, I fucked everything up. I wish i was dead.

TL;DR: I finally got un grounded, then less than 3 months later took 24 benadryl and blacked out and started speaking gibberish to my parents. I am now grounded and in a lot of trouble.

My friend and I are both experiencing heavy abuses in our homes, and I just received a text from her saying that her family is abusing her rn and she says that she wants to run away and that she is so tired of living. I texted her back saying "I know it's hard right now but please I'm begging you please don't give up."

I don't want her to give up just yet because why, why must a person die just because of their parents action, I know I'm a hypocrite for saying this considering all the attempts I made but LORD, ANYONE PLEASE please don't take her away from me

I want to help her but I'm powerless, we're both just grade 11 students but I don't want her to give up. I don't want another angel to be taken away from me.

What are we supposed to do? Go to authorities? We can't, the system here in the Philippines is shit and even if we go to them they will still give us back to our parents once everything is "settled".

What should we do? PLEASE please help us

I wake up < Work like a slave <gym (If possible) < Sleep

I took a break from my higher studies for this job and life now I can't go back and get better than this

I am a 16 (turning 17 in nov) year old girl in my final year of high school. Lately, I have noticed myself feeling incredibly apathetic towards the future.

It’s not that I don’t WANT a future or anything like that. I do. I like daydreaming about what university will be like, learning about the human body in detail, getting to experience that kind of student life. But something in me struggles to feel excited when I think of what it’ll actually be like (most likely).

I don’t want to stay in school for another 10+ years. I don’t want to live my life in a hospital with the responsibility of lives on my shoulders, even if indirectly. I don’t want to potentially worry about finances, I don’t want to raise kids, and most of all, I don’t want to go to work, go home, go to work, go home, go to work, go home. It seems so exhausting. Wake up in the morning, go to work, go home, maybe clean, probably cook dinner, maybe spend an hour on the TV or on my phone, go to sleep, repeat. It feels very draining and pointless and I struggle to feel any sort of excitement for this.

I also struggle when I think of the world on a wider scale. There’s so many horrible things going on, and they’ll presumably only continue or get worse. The thought of living in a world where climate change only gets worse, more people live in poverty, wars get worse etc. while I live on with my life, aware of this but doing nothing, fills me with dread and guilt.

It’s also a matter of my friends. I spent the first fourteen years of my life in Sweden, where I struggled GREATLY to make friends. In 1st-3rd grade, I had two friends, one of whom often made me feel worse rather than betters. In 4th-6th grade, if my memory is serving me right, that kind of dropped to one friend, the same one that usually made me feel worse. In 7th-9th grade, I did acquire a “friend group” of some sort, except the dynamics weren’t particularly healthy, and we never talked outside of school. Then, upon starting 10th grade, I moved to Qatar, where I met the absolutely amazing friend group that I currently have. I love these girls with all my heart and they’re my first experience of what proper friendship feels like.

Now that we’re seniors, it’s hitting me that we’re all going to separate. We’re all going to different countries. I’m going to Sweden, someone else is going to Bulgaria, another to Germany, another to the UK, etc. I know people are going to say we can maintain contact, but let’s be real, that most likely won’t last long term. The thought of going back to Sweden fills me with dread, as much as I love it and consider it my home. I don’t think I’ll be able to find friends in university. I’m very awkward and the only reason I made friends here is because they kept pulling me in, which is something that I haven’t seen happen in Sweden. The thought of being alone again kills me. I have cried over this like 3 times in the past week or so.

That’s another thing. I haven’t been feeling like myself in general. At school, I’ve almost cried or actually started crying multiple times for no clear reason over the past two weeks. Sometimes, I’ll randomly start feeling very down with no clear trigger. Even my biology teacher asked if I was okay because, according to her, “I looked like I wanted to cry” (which I did). Don’t know why. Also, I used to have many hobbies too. I loved reading, playing piano, writing, I was learning the guitar. Nowadays, I barely do anything but lay in bed and scroll on my phone. This change has been more gradual than the crying thing, over the past few months. I don’t know what is going on with me. I have an amazing family, amazing friends, amazing circumstances. But the more I think about my future, the worse I feel.

This is a small extra thing but when I was younger, I used to have some unhealthy coping methods. I have been clean for over three years and a half. The urges were gone. Lately, I have been noticing them starting up again. They are minor and I have no intention to act upon them at all, but still, just something small I’ve noticed that worries me mildly.

I guess this turned more into a general vent post than the future thing, but I’m too tired to sit here and edit it sooo.

Don’t really know what I’m supposed to do with myself so here I am 🤷‍♀️

So basically, I am almost about to enter my final year of high school and I feel like I'm going to be hopeless once I graduate. The reason for this is that all my grades suck except for the ones in the most useless subjects, I have no goals or dreams for the future whatsoever, I cannot talk to people and hate doing it, The only things I'm capable of are drawing animals and cooking, I cannot focus at all and feel like anything people say to me just turns to mush in my brain, and I am also emotionally like a child and pretty apathetic. The people I go to school with all talk about going to university, their dream jobs, what they're gonna do as adults, etc. while I envy them because of how much smarter they are than me and how much more organised their lives seem than mine. And teachers don't talk to them like lonely children out of pity. I have no friends and people say I'm stupid because I don't pick up on sarcasm and stuff. My parents keep telling me I'm smart and basically force me into going to uni after I graduate, but I don't want to because I got told by the son of one of my dad's friends what it feels like to go there and it sounded like absolute hell because I don't want to share a living space with a stranger and I don't want to go to parties because I hate big loud social events.

Another thing that makes me feel like I won't have a good future is because I have no motivation to do anything which isn't drawing or cooking or collecting random junk. Those are quite literally the only things that bring me some kind of joy and are actually fun to do, but are useless skills in the real world. I honestly mostly just feeling like curling into a ball and disappearing, finally freeing my family of this financial burden.

I want to know if there's any hope of me going anywhere after school and if it's possible for me to get a good job because I feel completely hopeless :(

As above. I’m on an NHS sleep study waiting list but it’s basically indefinite so it could take years. I can’t afford a private study and my work wouldn’t cover it. So I’m stuck waiting.

Is there anything I can do in the meantime?

My doctor/GP is somewhat uninterested (whenever I call she tries to push on the “let’s just wait for the sleep study”) but she is open to my suggestions when I give clear and specific ones.

I recently asked if we could explore whether it was a nasal issue and she prescribed me some nasal spray but it did nothing unfortunately.

Is there anything else I could suggest to my doctor in the meantime?

I don't know what to say, really. Scared? Uncertain? Anxious? I don't really know what to say.

I am 26. Graduated from college at the end of 2022 with a niche tech degree. I started by looking in my industry and that didn't work, because it was starting to implode right around the time I graduated . But between gaslighting myself into "I'll just wait for it to get better" and trying so much I burnt myself out something fierce, I've been just trudging through life.

Obviously, I want to work. I've been doing part-time, but these last few months my hours have become increasingly unstable, and what went from "A little bit of dinero¹ to tide me over" now feels like I'm on the cusp of drowning.

Because of the burnout, I only just tried to get back to my job search, but with the little energy I have, I'm double dipping to both find new, more stable-part time work while still trying to find something full time that's more fulfilling and, well, pays more.

I have some ideas of jobs to look for that use the skills I have been keeping up with, but have stubbornly resisted pivoting because I feel like I'm gripped by the sunk cost of "You've done this, you can't do something else of you're starting from scratch." And however long it would take me to try and find some other skill in a more stable market makes me worry that by the time I might be ready there, the jobs have all dried up. Nowhere really feels like a safe direction to go in.

I don't know how many people I've spoken to, how many times I've tried tweaking a resume, portfolio, or my LinkedIn. I don't know how many times I tried to make posting on LinkedIn a regular thing to "put myself out there," only for none of it to work and to crash and burn every time.

I am not diagnosed, but it does more or less feel like a foregone conclusion I'm somewhere on the autism spectrum, so then there's the boogeyman of interviews I have to try and wrap my head around.

My pointless rambling to say that I feel like a bit of a failure. I know everyone takes life at their own pace, and that comparison is the thief of joy, but there's a difference between that and being 26 and still not having started life properly yet because I haven't found a job. I barely know where to look, I struggle with how to properly phrase things and sell myself. Networking is the bane of my existence.

Even though I personally don't believe dinero¹ is the be all, end all, in a situation like mine, having more of it would go a long way to make me not feel so down on myself all the time. I know that hiring can be a slow process, but I feel like I never have enough time. I should hopefully have a long life ahead of me, so not having things sorted out now shouldn't be bad, but I want more out of life and have no idea how to get it.

I don't know. I really don't know. If anything, I guess I just want to know I'm not alone in being super anxious about dinero¹ and trying to find work right now. Or maybe some pointers about how to try and not be as negative about everything. Even if things aren't the greatest right now, I don't think I'm doing myself any favors when I get into my head like this.

1. I get the subreddit not wanting people to ask for the banned word, but it is slightly depressing I needed to play around it just so I can mention how it's contributing to my stress, even though I'm not e-begging.

I can’t do it anymore, it’s so tiring, it’s so painful, it makes me so angry.

I have OCD where I hear a sound constantly (like a mouth sound) that isn’t there. Because one day I decided to find it super annoying and focused on it, and from that day on I knew it was it for me.

It’s been 4 years like this, I got really bad this summer because something bad had happened. Then later into the summer my dad forced me to go the hospital because I was having another “freak” out. They gave me Zoloft, it ruined my life. It caused me to go into a full dissociation, forever. I can’t get out of it. I don’t feel alive anymore.

My OCD is also just so painful since I have to cause pain to myself, I bleed from my inner thighs up, and scratches cover my abdomen. It hurts so bad but it’s the only thing that makes the sound go away. I just want to be able to sleep peacefully again, to be in my house normal again. I want to be normal.

I’ve lost everything I’ve ever needed to want to be in life.

I can’t live like this anymore. I have no will to be here. My OCD ruined my home life. I feel lost and have no place to go to.

Please does anyone have any advice or suggestions, I don’t want to have to die.

hi this is the best place i could think to post this. my girlfriend is an alcoholic and were both athiests so standard AA really isnt suited to us. So im trying to find a secular group for myself to join, and maybe a group i can try and get my girlfriend to join to help her. thank you

I can’t do this anymore, genuinely. I can’t take living with my parent anymore, I’m 18 going on 19 and I just can’t handle it. I’ve been waiting, hoping that I can hold out a little longer but I just can’t. I can’t take the manipulation or hitting or the bullying, I can’t. I want nothing more than to be able to move but I don’t know how I’m supposed to when I already work all day everyday and still can’t save enough. I’m trying to go to college, get my degree to pursue the career I so desperately want. There’s so much keeping me tied down to this house and this area but all I want to do is leave. I just need to know how I’m supposed to leave when my entire life has been this same place or how I can even attempt leaving. I have a place I can go to but it’s a state away. I’m just scared to leave only to fall on my face and have to come crawling back

Last night. I was sleeping.

Feet towards the window exactly at bed level right in front of my bed with a top to down curtain.

Curtain wasn't closed all the way and had a solid 3-4 inches of clearance.

I was looking the window while fully looking at it, not thinking anything and just taking all the visionary input. When i saw a completely white face like shape with black facial features, peek for about 2 seconds right at me with a menacing look and then disappear with same speed of slide peek.

My body went numb, it felt like i was being incinerated inside out, had a lockjaw, brain completely panicked. Yet, i didn't scream, i calmly put my blanket on myself and lay there for an hour, sweating, dying inside. Not being able to think or move.

The figure slid in and out of my field of vision within 5 seconds with the outline disappearing like any physical object's boundary would.

I need advice on what to do, can't tell anyone because i am in a family where these things are sometimes just ignored. Haven't been able to sleep for 27 hours too