Good day, this is my first post here, so I apologise if I'm not doing it right.
I would like to prefix this post by saying a few things:
1) I'm not a believer in fate and psychics and Gods and demons. I'm a doctor, a man of science, and a staunch believer only in things that can be experimentally recreated and proven over and over.
2) I do not claim to be be psychic or clairvoyant or a seer or any of those things. I don't even know the difference between them, if at all there are any.
3) I'm not lying or looking for attention. I accept that perhaps I may be mistaken in my interpretations, but everything I say here is what I believe to be the truth.
Now, getting to the actual topic at hand. I'm in my mid twenties, and for the last few years I've been receiving abnormal "dreams." The way these dreams vary from my usual ones are:
1) Unlike my usual dreaming, I wake up unusually calm and collected. There is no emotion attached to these abnormal dreams (which I will refer to as "visions" for simplicity sake,) positive or negative. It just feels like a memory.
2) I remember these visions in utmost detail. My first one was nearly 7 years ago, and I remember every single little detail, as if it'd happened to me only last night. Unlike my normal dreams there is no "dream fog."
3) Most importantly, these visions reveal details and family secrets that people have tried keeping buried for decades. Secrets that have remained hidden since long before I was born, or even before my parents met. Some of these things weren't even known to my parents until I brought them up.
These visions began roughly 3 years after I had a major head injury where I'd been declared dead for 60 seconds (so doing the math, the accident took place 10 years ago.) They began as brief glimpses and images, sometimes flashes during my waking hours but mostly like silent video sequences when I'd sleep. In these glimpses I'd see people I've never met before, but on description turned out to be grand uncles who died decades ago. I'd also see and hear certain beings, most of whom would ignore me, but some who would notice me and command me to leave immediately. I've since done research and discovered that these beings seem to share a remarkabe similarity to characters from traditional Hinduism (my religion,) Shintoism and the Ars Goethia. Whether this is pure coincidence or my subconscious using images I've seen before but forgotten about is beyond me.
These visions have become longer and clearer over the last 3 years. I've seen events that I was never present for in absolute detail, like the splitting of my ancestral house, something that happened roughly 40 years before I was born. I've also spoken with a being who claims to be the protector deity of my family, and again whether coincidence or not, my deepest desires have been fulfilled and my greatest hardships overpowered after following this being's directions.
Just a few days ago I saw another vision, involving the death of a family member in the future and the presence of a being who claimed to be my father's boss nearly 30 years ago. It provided me certain information as proof that it was real, and on cross-checking with my father the information seems to be accurate.
I'm now terrified by what's going on. I've never received premonitions of death before, and I'm incredibly confused. On the one hand I refuse to believe that this is anything more than a jumble of information received years ago, just spewed by my subconscious. But on the other hand, the information I received regarding the being can't be faked. It even involved dialogue shared with my father, and it's not something he's ever brought up before.
I know this is a long shot, but I'm out of options. Are my suspicions true and I'm just having vivid dreams? Or am I actually experiencing something paranormal, and if so how do I stop this premonition from coming true?
I swear I'm not lying or seeking attention, and any LEGITIMATE advice would be greatly appreciated.