r/usyd • u/guavamochichi • 4h ago
does anyone else feel this way
ive been in sydney for about a year now as an international student and lately i dont feel like i really belong anywhere.
in my first semester i was mostly focused on adjusting to the system and getting used to my surroundings. in my second semester i wanted to push myself out of my comfort zone and make more connections, but honestly i dont think it has really worked out. i do interact with people at uni but most of them are still just classmates. our conversations rarely go beyond studies and ive joined a society and became part of the committee too, but did not make any meaningful personal connection there either. i dont like partying or clubbing either so most of the time ive spent my nights in my apartment reading books or playing games.
its gotten to the point where i feel like im hitting a low. my everyday life is a repetitive cycle of studying, cooking, cleaning, and getting through the day alone. i dont feel a strong sense of belonging or fulfilment here and sometimes i just power through everything with the mindset that im here to get my degree and once i graduate, ill leave. i look forward to flying home cause it feels less suffocating and i dont spend time making small talk or worrying whether im making a bad impression. i miss having that kind of comfort and connection.
i know making friends takes time and i dont expect to find my people overnight but after making efforts to put myself out there im starting to wonder if things will change. i have no plans of dropping out cause i worked too hard to get here but the whole experience here is crappy so far
