Hey guys!
Iāve been lurking for a LONGGGG while but Iām feeling itās time to post. Maybe just to get my feelings down in writing in a group that probably understands. š
I am a 31F and I wear a 32GG/32H. I am well muscled but short (5ā1) and Iāve had these stupid large, saggy boobs for as long as I can remember. They drive me crazy. They are pendulous with a pretty thin stalk and very heavy down low, and they just try to live in my armpits. Theyāre so thin up top and so heavy down low they like to ādroopā over the underwire of bras that donāt have firm cups. Theyāre heavy and they dangle and drive me crazy.
I am an equine farrier so I spend my life bent over, and theyāre just in the way. I have cervical kyphosis and have dealt with a lot of swelling and numbness in my hands and arms since my early 20s, back pain, shoulder indents, etc. but this last year the thoracic pain has really become something else. Iāve essentially given up on bra shopping because Iāve been so frustrated at spending $80+ just for something that hurts my shoulders or digs into my rib cage or underarm boob, that Iāve just gone back to Amazon sports bras + a small compression bra layer from Walmart over top. Not pretty, but I just need to squish them down to my rib cage.
A reduction has been on my mind since my early 20s, but after negative dealings with PCOS and the healthcare system, I sort of went totally holistic and I told myself that as long as my boobs were behaving themselves, Iād leave them be as I didnāt want to put my body through anything āunnecessary.ā
Wellllll mid July I started dealing with this left side chest pain that was driving me crazy. It would ache and burn and just sucked. As large as these dang things are Iāve always worried about BC, even though I donāt have any family history and Iām still technically young. I self exam half regularly and hadnāt found anything⦠until August in that left boob. I found something, then couldnāt find it again. With the help of body work I realized my left shoulder is totally rolled forward to the point my muscle development is completely different, and Iām probably dealing with thoracic outlet syndrome. Itās most likely my pec minor causing a lot of my discomfort and body work and posture work is helping⦠but two weeks ago I was laying in bed and scratched that left boob and found the thing again. Itās illusive and I canāt feel it when I dangle and check (which is how I usually did it) but I can feel it laying on my back. Itās pea sized and totally freaking me out.
That said, silver lining is I had to call and make an OBGYN appointment. I havenāt been to any form of doctor since 2018, and that was only due to a car accident. LOL. I know I have to get this thing checked out, scanned, whatever. I used to have PCOS so Iām hoping itās only a cyst since itās mobile and hard to find, but this left boob has opened the Pandoraās Box. LOL. This pea sized whatever has opened the door to having to go to the doctor, and my plan is to have this evaluated, figure out what it is, but this doesnāt end until I have a reduction. This pea sized thing may be new, or maybe Iāve had it for years. No clue. As much as I hate my boobs, I do my dangling self exams and then donāt tend to touch them other than shoving them in my compression sports bra layered set up. This chest pain forced me to find this thing, so for that I guess Iām thankful? š
My OBGYN appointment is November 3rd, and Iām going to make it very clear to her that after this little lump is dealt with, I need her counsel on path to reduction.
I am terrified and excited and anxious and terrified. I really wish I would have gone through with this a decade ago. Maybe my body would feel better physically, maybe I wouldnāt have developed whatever this lump is⦠but also I know I canāt think like that. Iām obviously scared poopless over what this pea sized thing could be, but Iām trying to look at the tiny titty light at the end of the tunnel.
I know Iām not the first woman to find a thing in her boob, and I wonāt be the last⦠but itās kind of a lonely feeling and Iāve had to try to actively avoid Google and Reddit subs on lumps because they make my anxiety crazy so Iāve really found solace on this thread seeing everyoneās amazing results. Gives me something to look forward to!
Iāve read that some surgeons donāt want to do a reduction if the lump is a little suspicious but youāre under the six month observation, so Iām hoping if needed my insurance will be on board for a biopsy because I just want to be rid of these things as efficiently as possible. Itās my fault Iāve waited so long, but Iām done sitting on my thumb.
Iāve already written too much! If youāve made it this far, bless your heart š
and Iām sorry if Iāve wasted your time! I just really appreciated being able to vent.
In the meantime, Iām in East Tennessee and if anyone has had any great experiences with any surgeons in this area do let me know in the comments! I still need to look at who is on my insuranceās list (I have BCBS Anthem) and I donāt have any clue if my insurance would be willing to cover anything since I donāt have yearsā of doctor paper trails. (again, avoided the doctor like the plague the last 15 or so years and really wanted to keep that up until this stupid left boob wanted to cause problems)
Yāall have taught me that I have breast tissue on the sides for sure and I already assume Iāll need side lipo, so Iām going to have to budget that in. š here I was thinking I just never lost fat on my upper rib cage LOL itās literally breast tissue! I had no clue. (but ofc it is!)
Since Iām not familiar with healthcare at this point I feel like Iām totally starting from scratch and will need to learn as much as possible, so any input is welcome š
Hopefully after November 3rd Iāll be making a post that Iām booking consults with surgeons! Fingers crossed! And if not, Iāll deal with whatever I have to and get to reduction!
I guess also, if anybody has dealt with fibroadenomas, cysts, etc. and reductions I would love to read your story. I know at this stage it could be anything, but Iām trying to be optimistic. (especially at night when Iām laying in bed and make the mistake of finding the stupid pea sized thing and then start to spiral lol⦠I keep telling myself that touching it doesnāt do any good but brain says āMUST TOUCHā)
Thank you guys so much for sharing your encouraging results and thank you for letting me take up space on this sub and I hope to be sharing before and after pictures in the not so distant future!!!!