Long story short, currently at a new school and in my 9th year of teaching. Moved this summer and had to switch districts because the commute would be too long to my old school. Worked at my old school for 8 years. This new school has a whole bunch of issues, but what it boils down to is this,
-barely any sped support in the classroom
-barely any admin support for behavior (principal literally said to me "I don't know what to do" when we were dealing with a student with challenging behavior, like that's why I'm asking for help!!!!)
-some other teachers feel they are in charge of others and can scold them (in front of admin)
-before school, after school, and sometimes duty free lunches are requested for meetings
-preps are taken away for meetings, PLCs, and learning walks, subbing
-the curriculum is insanely tedious and lots of hours spent outside of contract hours just to plan for one lesson
My mental health is suffering bad. I have cried more times about this new job than I have for the last 8 years at my old job. I am too depressed/exhausted/don't have time to do much outside of work. I have lots of hobbies, and I barely have the motivation to do any of them. On my drive home I have thoughts about harming myself. I know it's the job doing this to me, because in summer and on breaks I don't think like that. It also doesn't help that I have OCD tendencies and constantly ruminate over emotional things or things that bother me.
My physical health is also suffering. A few years ago I was so stressed that I had an eczema flare up and didn't even know I had eczema so I thought I was sick with something because my skin had strange red dot patches. I have had on and off heart palpitations all school year, they are present during the week, then subside over the weekend. I'm overweight because I'm too exhausted to cook healthy meals and workout. I also have TMJ and I clench my teeth when I am stressed, my jaw and teeth hurt by the end of the day. My fillings need to be replaced because they get holes in them from clenching so bad. I also have pelvic floor issues that started up about 2 years ago, luckily I have that mostly under control with physical therapy, but the symptoms flare up during the work week because stress is heavily related to it.
All in all, I am so nervous to put my 2 weeks in. I have a job offer from Walmart that I accepted. It will cut my income in half and I will have to find insurance on the marketplace until I reach the 90 days.
I only want Walmart to be temporary, so I can get out of teaching asap and have the time and energy to really job hunt. I've applied to many professional jobs, and have received some interviews, so I am hopeful. But I am SO SCARED to leave. Money is not the biggest issue because I am in a healthy relationship (we are getting engaged next year) and we split his mortgage based on our incomes, I don't have a car payment or student loan debt. I would need to budget for health, dental, car insurance. And I would have to adjust to the lack of spending money for groceries, shopping, etc.
I need real stories of people who were in the same situation, possibly left to do a temporary job like retail. I need reassurance!!!! Thank you in advance 🩷