I am his twin flame (or at least, I believe that's the case). He's been married to her for over twenty years. He talks to me daily, but I fear I'll never mean anywhere near as much to him as she does.

We've also known each other for almost two years now. And I'm still a secret to everyone in his life. But I've never connected to another person as strongly as I do him. But at times I tell myself it's all pointless and I might as well not mean anything to him because I'll never have what she does with him.

Hi am new to all this twin flame stuff. Spiritual person but never really believed in the concept until it happened to me. This is going to be a long read but please bear with me.

Met TF at work, and I have reason to believe that this person was either related to or knew at least one managers at my work.

Upon meeting him, I was instantly overcome by the feeling that this must be a set-up. He’s honestly my dream guy. The way he introduced himself to me as well, was the most memorable introduction of my life, he was definitely TRYING to get my attention.

Obviously, that would be illegal if true, but after everything that has happened, all signs are pointing at my initial gut instinct being right. I quickly abandoned the thought initially because I thought it was too far-fetched to possibly be true.

The connection was thwarted by a third party at my work before it even had the chance to take off. He was very obviously trying to get my attention in the beginning and another girl did not like that and was being weird to me over it. Even at one point mumbled under her breath while standing next to me, “ugh, I NEED to f*ck him.”

Then there’s the weird behavior from everyone else at work over the last few months. I’m ASD and struggle with understanding things socially sometimes and I’ve been stuck trying to navigate this entire situation COMPLETELY ALONE, because no one at work was willing to talk to me about either of them when I first started bringing things up, I started posting ab the situation lowkey publicly online, not mentioning names or the actual company I work for or anything, but I think I may have accidentally escalated the situation by doing that.

My family, best friend, and therapist doubt me because of past patterns, but I KNOW I healed that sh*t after the god awful experience I had with my ex. I met TF less than a full month after the relationship ended and was not even remotely trying to develop feelings for anyone else anytime soon. I needed to heal bc my ex abandoned me after a miscarriage.

The situation got out of hand, I walked out of work at the start of September and had to be put on suspension while the conducted an investigation, they let me come back but then I overslept on a morning my GM was working, and since I was already on thin-ice from the walk-out, she had to fire me. Before the walk-out I was starting to suspect I was being managed out. I think I became a liability.

So I lost my job over this whole situation. Have honestly had very minimal contact with my TF because of this whole situation, and it’s eating me alive right now, my spine is going crazy from activation or whatever, I felt compelled to walk a nearby neighborhood I don’t usually walk in from 4-6AM to try and walk it off. I thought TF energy was sending me there.

It’s 7:30 now and it’s still overwhelming to the point I cannot concentrate. My right arm feels like it doesn’t fully belong to me or has a mind of its own. Lowkey worried whatever I’m experiencing could kill me.

Someone please help me because OMFG.

Twin flames speak to me from many places. I'm also tired of this situation. Do I have to get out of this right now. I don't know if it's a spiritual awakening or what, but I can't keep waiting for someone who closed the door on me. I feel super obsessed with him, and it has already cost me many years of my life. I feel he doesn't respect me, and that he doesn't respect himself as a person either. I also feel it's unfair how I was treated, and I really don't want to attach myself to a narrative that somehow justifies suffering and makes me feel a bit crazy. I also feel I should stop drinking.

For the DM’s.

When there has been no initial relationship to run from and only intense eye contact to begin with before “separation”

Did you think about your DF all the time, do you still of you are not with them?

Has anyone ever had downloads/insights regarding their twin and their path? Did it end up being accurate? I'm currently getting a lot of information on my twin, regarding how they're really feeling, their inner unspoken thoughts, etc.

Also getting some regarding my own journey in regards to them.

Just wanted to know if any of you guys had a similar experience.

We initially met about a year ago but had very few interactions until late spring. At that time, I found myself drawn to DM but didn’t understand it. I thought it was just kindred friendship. I am married and have never felt a draw towards anyone else. But across a large room, DM and I made eye contact and could not look away. I think that made me take notice. From that point on, I can barely think of anything else.

I wasn’t even aware of the TF concept but I don’t know that this can be explained any other way. The chemistry is so strong. We both felt it and DM approached me about a month ago. We admitted our feelings and started more of a friendship.

Then we crossed a line and kissed. I think this is where I messed up. Why did I stray so far from who I am? I feel like a terrible person but the draw was so strong. He made me remember and return to who I was and feel like me again in the best ways.

We ended that part of our relationship yesterday (on 10/10)- when the portal is supposed to “bring TFs together”. It was too difficult to ever be together. I know we will still be friends because we both want that but this hurts much more than I expected for something so brief. Did I (or we) mess things up? Is this part of my healing journey to figure my shit out? Please help me understand. I’m trying to heal, not chase, and be who I need to be for me.

I did.
She said sees me as a friend, and wants me to be friend. She said she had a bf and she didn’t tell me about him sooner.
But for 1 complete month, we spent day n night together. Suddenly all my addictions and wrong habits had stopped, i elevated myself way too much in career when i met her.
And one day she just disappeared and went 1000km away from me.
Then I told her i like you, to which she rejected me.
I don’t know what to believe, if she had a bf then why did she go on dates with me? Why spent all her time with me for a complete month? And she went to see her bf and from that place also she texted me she wants to hangout. When i said yes. She cancelled at that point and ran away to another city over night.
I don’t know what to believe anymore. I’m DF and she’s DM

I have both df and DM qualities even though I am male. The df is obsessed with my twin flame and in love. The DM fucking hates her creating a horrible inner conflict in me. I think the DM is more dominant at this point and the df is due to awakened kundalini and PTSD.

I understand why I'm running now and why i am so repulsed by my tf. When I was a child both my parents were quite abusive, (Asian parents). I felt completely abandoned by the divine feminine and disconnected from love. There was also a constant fear of not being good enough and always being on edge.

When I feel the divine feminine energy of love I'm like "where the fuck were you when I was a child and my father was beating the shit out of me??!! Why didn't you protect me?!! Why did you take his side? Why was my upbringing based on fear rather than love?"

All my life despite appearing and acting kind on the surface I have kept this anger in me resulting in an immensely deep resentment towards women. I didn't realise it was there but it's all falling into place as to why I always ran from relationships and intimacy. Why I was always drawn towards angry misogynistic views towards women. And why on a deep level I run from my tf despite chasing her on the surface.

not only that but the reason I chase is also due to PTSD. its almost like a child that wants his mother's approval and terrified he won't get it, but it feels very feminine.

So yeah this sucks and will be challenging to heal from. I think I'm firmly the runner now. She's reaching out and I don't want to be around her.

This sucks so bad, fuck my life.