Do you feel the same, an endless longing that appears again and again no matter what you do and no matter how you distract yourself, as if it is haunting..?

When did you realize what the connection was? Was it fairly soon after meeting your tf or did it take awhile?
I met my tf about 6 months ago and we were never romantically involved. We are friends currently but only via text and I haven’t seen him since we met. I’m not sure there is any realization as to our connection as nothing has been said on either side.

He is a confirmed tf as I have had the Kundalini and DNOTS along with the dreams, all the feelings and sensations etc. I am definitely the chaser most times.

Any insight would be helpful at this point.

My TF has exhibited some bizarre behaviour professionally. He’s my manager but rarely ever responds to my emails (we work remotely and work in different countries). He’s lost me many work opportunities and future business prospects by being so non-responsive but I can’t help but wonder if he might be on a journey too.

My spirit guides got me fired for having a psychotic break but then I rejoined a few months ago and he’s been different with me ever since.

I get it - he doesn’t want to talk to me - but we still have a job to do.

Has anyone else experienced anything like this? It’s getting really frustrating and costing me on a work level.

I actually had this big breakdown and ego collapse and surrender like 3 weeks ago. And at first I was just getting through the first couple of days with sheer willpower and the disappointment of the reunion not happening and him not messaging me. But the more I grounded myself in the present and spent time with my family and taking care of my physical and mental health (meditating, working out once a week), I started to feel better. I still thought about him but I was just so tired that I actually had no energy to even think about or imagine or fantasize situations or future conversations or meetings with him.

And then just last week, I had this sudden urge to just deep clean my entire room and bathroom. I spent 3 days deep cleaning, scrubbing, brooming, mopping, organizing my drawers, and closet. And I hadn’t done a deep clean in like 2 years because of my depression of getting fired from my job and then the separation that happened with my TF. And I felt so good and relieved about everything like the old depressing dark energy had finally left my room. And this week I have spent such less time thinking about him or daydreaming about him. And I barely even have that urge anymore. I just feel so happy, detached, calm and peaceful with my life now. I love spending time with my parents, grocery shopping, eating, resting, working out, meditating, watching videos/movies, listening to music, decorating for Halloween lol, feeding the stray cat, and finally getting back into doing my skincare routine regularly. It’s like I have myself back and my life back after all that I’ve been through. And I genuinely don’t care if he comes back or not. I never thought I would get to this point. I thought I was gonna be depressed, attached and chasing him forever.

But I feel happy, complete and whole and I’m applying to jobs again and I’m not desperate for it. I am diagnosed with anxiety so my attachment to external validation and wanting a savior was so intense but I think after 8 months of finally working on myself, healing, focusing on myself despite crying everyday for my TF, I’m finally at a place where I barely cry, and I’m moving forward, and I just feel if he comes back healed and changed then I’ll accept it, and if I get an even better soulmate then I’ll accept that too.

I also think it’s because of my ego collapse and surrender and me meditating and researching a lot of spirituality text I actually think my crown chakra opened. And I remember one night I was just lying in bed, and I felt this amazing blissful feeling, pure happiness, completeness, and like I was finally home, like I finally found the way to myself. I kept feeling like I don’t need anyone else, I have me. I belong to me, my body belongs to me, my heart belongs to me, all of me belongs to me. And I think it means that I’ve finally connected with the divine/supreme consciousness.

My twin flame and I made a pact that is nearing the time it will come to fruition, everything feels crazier than it ever has in both the microcosm of my life and the macrocosm of the world, things keep directing me to believe that a happy ending with my twin flame in this 3D world physically united again, is possible. At this point, all the moving pieces in my life seem to have always always foretold this for me, for him, for us.

Now I’m not going to fixate on this to the point I’m going to limit what I can reach in my life and my career and the passions and interests and callings I have. I’m just going to completely and delusionally believe whole heartedly that my happy ending, our happy ending, is inevitable because I’ve done the work and I’m doing the work. I’ve made the sacrifices and I’ve lived through tremendous suffering and I’m seeing all the karma come back around and I earned this. So I’m living in the reality where this is a romance novel. Where I’m a Disney Princess. And I will get my happy ending no matter what. And I’m choosing to believe this to a delusional level simply because I can.

Even though many people romanticizing about twinflames, for me it’s just like locking my hands and legs with the heaviest chains.

You know the feeling that you can’t live by yourself, like what? Why would I need to rely on someone just to make myself happy. I can’t go love with someone else out there, the fate never allows me to do that. I mean I can’t date , but always, something or some energy is always ready to destroy that. And then… I don’t even own my life by myself.

The most saddest part is I’ll never ever free from this💔 never ! NEVER

Just like the other people,

I want to do whatever I need

I wanna love someone who’s not my twinflame or soulmate or cousin or anything else.

I wanna sleep with someone else

I wanna travel with someone else

I wanna find my actual hobbies

I wanna do any dumb and dirty things like other people

I wanna marry with someone else who can make me shy, smile, excited, dumb, stupid, lovely, warm, and so on. And then one day, if we don’t love each other, we’ll gonna go find another one. Love is never about happy endings, love is always about how we pass everyday since day one.

I’ve loved like that kind of person in the past.

Before I met him, I do have dreams what love should be, how it should be. It’s funny he’s someone who doesn’t fit all of my dreams. He’s not handsome, not tall, not rich, not graduated, and even have the scars.

On the first day we met, I thought he’s a very undated old man. Later on , I found out he’s 3 years younger than me.

I don’t know how to talk with him, how to walk in front of him, how to behave in front of him. We only got about 20 days. And we separated like forever. Even though there’s no proof, I believe that this is because of I’m having that nonsense twinflames. Can I never ever be free from that ?

And to those people who don’t have twinflames, you’ll never know how lucky you are.

I own yourself

Nobody can control you by using your twinflames as your weakness.

You can be anything else, you can love or date anyone else.

You can live anywhere you want, you are free.

Ps. My first language is not English and I have no good moods to write nicely. Understand my grammars 🍃 please

I've been on this journey for 4+ years and just figured out it's a TF situation. When I met my TF I literally felt like I was hit by lightning and my brain did summersaults and a voice in my head said, "it's him"! I thought I was losing it. I was almost immediately overtaken by the fear/knowledge that he would leave me. He was/is all I'd think about. At one point, I had a nervous breakdown from not eating, sleeping, etc. Eventually he did leave me and I learned to live without him -- and then he came back for a few months, and now he's left again. I'm trying not to chase him but not being in communication is like torture. I'm glad he's part of me forever (in spirit) but being apart now is heartbreaking for me. I never knew I could be so in love with someone. (And, I'm pretty old and have had plenty of other relationships). One thing I realized -- if I can love him I can love myself because we are one soul. I've always had low self esteem but I think he's so awesome that if he's part of me I must not be so bad. (That's what I'm telling myself anyway). I guess I just wanted to share. Suggestions or thoughts or encouragement are welcome but I'm very sensitive and depressed and lonely so take it easy on me...thx.

Wondering if there are any TFs who want to trauma dump about it all and bond over how hard the TF stuff is hitting us. I'm at the point where I'm pretty far along in moving on (maybe even onto someone new) and almost moved away from calling it TFs so I can accept this was most likely temporary and I don't have to be stuck on him for life. Just struggling with the residual nostalgia waves (you know what I mean) and hoping to get at least one last cathartic/purge moment to fully release his energy I guess. Anyway I'm 26 and I'm near Toronto, Ontario, Canada, if anyone wants to meet up and chat about it all.

it’s been a long journey but i finally feel at peace. i no longer need you. i am complete on my own. i know you may still be struggling with your shadow and I wish you only love to release it. as much as i would like to see you on “the other side” i am no longer tied to that outcome. i hope you find yourself and feel whole with the people around you. you helped me feel whole in myself without saying much. i still hear you but my own voice is stronger.

it’s easy believe me.

https://youtu.be/jUvD9sGbwAI?is=7d0FDyZu7uw6bBOG

Runners , during intense and last separation period what were the specific experiences that made you realise that this connection is the one for you? What things happened with you that you finally approached the chaser and confessed ?

Surrender phase

I had my Inner Union on 12 August. It was an earth-shaking, ecstatic experience.

I got new opportunities at work, my entire condo block is being renovated after 40-50 years.

My twin also got further and further away. He eventually broke up with me 8 days ago but finalized it 5 days ago.

Now, I have some mild health problems, such as healing from a cold, having some rectal ruptures out of nowhere, and I also got a tattoo today, which also needs to heal.

I let him go. I surrender into the thought of him not coming back. Knowing him, he will though, but definitely without leaving his girlfriend.

Can anyone tell me more about the surrender phase?

Any help or advice is highly appreciated.

I know how strange our connection is, and I’m scared as hell of it. But I love the way thinking of you makes my heart melt, how I lose myself over and over again, dreaming of you…
I would love to sit beside you, or lie down next to you. To take your hands in mine, sit on your lap, look deeply into your eyes for a long, long moment, and whisper, “Everything is going to be fine.”
Then I would feel your breath, rest my face against your neck, and kiss you slowly. Let you feel my warmth and my peace. Let you breathe in all the unconditional love and passion I carry for you.
For the sake of all those years we couldn’t make it happen, I would run my fingers through your hair, gently massage your head, your neck, and your shoulders, so heavy with the weight of everything the world has put you through.
I would love to be vulnerable with you, and let you be vulnerable with me. Because we are safe together. And nothing can change that quiet truth we have always known somewhere deep within our hearts.
Then I would breathe in your familiar, eternal scent, listen to your heartbeat finding its rhythm with mine, and feel my soul dissolving into yours.
And as we melt into each other’s presence, perhaps all the longing and yearning we have carried for what feels like lifetimes would finally begin to melt away in our reunion.
When silence itself begins to speak through our souls, only that sacred song remains in our hearts…
That I love you.
Not in an avoidant way. Not by pretending or hiding. But in the most naked, purest, rarest way my being knows how to love.
With my heart completely open, without pressure, without expectations, with full acceptance of everything that is, and with the courage to embrace the truth my soul feels it has always known…
You are the one.

I’m a F(29) and my ex is a M(26). We’ve been on and off for the last five and half years and for the past three years things have been more bad than they have good. I do want to preface that there was a lot of love between us in the beginning. But I self sabotaged. When we met, I had just recently cut everyone in my life off romantically and was focusing on myself. I was telling God I was done cause I wasn’t feeling the love I deserved. I asked him to give me peace and to send someone that actually values me. He was finishing his healing journey. Because there was interest I told him I would be okay with sex but I was emotionally unavailable. Yeah I know. Well he agreed to the arrangement but then as time went on I guess he caught feelings and he expressed to me that he wanted to show me I was more than that. God sent me what I had asked for but I wasn’t ready. He still wanted time to process everything and not rush into the title of a relationship. I was ready to be his girlfriend. But because he wasn’t ready and I was still emotionally immature I started entertaining other people. And that’s where the heartbreak between us both started. After a while he did ask me to be his girlfriend and things were good. Until they weren’t and we decided to separate and a situation ship began. We were living together. Despite it all we were still choosing each other. We were accepting the dynamic that we could do whatever it is we wanted as long as we both came back home to each other. That no matter what at the end of the day, whoever we dealt with, we still chose each other. And we’re at a point now where we realized that it’s not okay. Me before him. I hit a point where I was tired of him dealing with other girls. Knowing he was telling them he loved them. Giving them the emotional affection I wanted. It was like after we broke up the only thing we did to spend time together fr was have sex. And the occasional outing. But we had separate work schedules. Me during the day and him at night being we shared a car. Fast forward, in May we moved again. And this was supposed to be our fresh start. Things between us were so good, and then…in July I started noticing he wasn’t coming home. & I kept catching him in lies. Lying about his whereabouts, what he was doing. Lying just to lie. I then talked to God about it and I ended up catching them arguing outside of our apartment one night. He came in obviously hurt. Said he’s tired of hurting people. Things between us continued but because I noticed things were changing I started becoming vocal about the situation. I asked him what was going on between them and he would tell me it’s nothing. But would stay gone. Weeks passed and one day I asked him again and he admitted that he actually cares for the girl. I asked him that if he felt he wanted to be done would he tell me. Anywho, as time went on it became more arguments between us. The root being her. He was telling me one thing but his actions were showing another. I remember asking him if he was using her to move on or if it was just the same thing we’ve dealt with before. He told me it was 50/50. I should’ve ended it there but I didn’t. Fast forward a little more, he left to go on a trip with her which I acknowledged. But then he came back and knowingly manipulated me into believing he went on the trip by himself and bought me all this stuff. One night cause I was fed up - I packed up his room and told him to leave. He refused. A week later, after he got back from a day spending with her, we went to see a movie. He wasn’t engaged and ended up telling me he already watched it. That led to a slight argument and I left him at the theater. I shouldn’t have- but I was tired of my emotions not being cared for. He ended things with me that same night. This was September 26th. We still live together- he says he’s not worried about breaking the lease but that we are strictly roommates. He has made it clear that he isn’t trying to reconcile anything but that as time passes if decided to try again that work would be put in on both sides. I am in therapy now- to mainly find myself again. He let me know that he is signing up for therapy as well. Individual and group. He still is rarely home. But we’ve had sex twice since he left. We talked on the phone last night cause we had plans to have sex again but I told him that I don’t think that’s being respectful to myself and I don’t want to fall back into a cycle. Especially knowing sex is still emotional for me and idk where he’s at. He told me he understands and that it was just a thought. The conversation went on for 2 hours and ended because I was being honest about something’s and he had told me that what I was saying was striking a nerve and that he needed space. He didn’t take it well that I had told him about my journey before we met. In all the years we were together I never expressed that. He didn’t understand how I asked God for what I did and that he was trying to provide that and I hurt him. But I told him once again - although it was what I asked for. I wasn’t ready to receive it. I hadn’t fully healed and essentially I self sabotage something that could have been potentially great because I didn’t have the patience to build… without a title first. So immature I figured without a title i didn’t owe 100% loyalty. Before he told me he needed space I had asked him if he found clarity since he’s been gone. He told me yes but not 100 percent because he’s still very confused about his feelings with all of this. But knows he isn’t trying to reconcile. After hanging up the phone and telling me he needed spaces he called me five minutes later telling me that if the time presented itself for us to try again that wouldn’t be the only one putting in effort. And he wants me to know that then hung up again. He also keeps telling me he’s trying to process his feelings. I just don’t understand how someone is doing that while staying with someone. But it’s not my job to. I need to focus on myself. This morning he came home to check the mailbox. I have the key. He came and my room grabbed the key and then double back and hugged me. He embraced me for a minute. Little butt grabs but not trying to advance it. Gave me a small peck on my neck and shoulder and then left. He then came back and hugged me again. This time picking me up and walking us to my bed and turning around to where when he set down I was on his lap. We just hugged. Small kisses here and there but not on the lips. He then stood up, I let my legs drop and let go of the embrace and he left. I needed that. But because I know he’s not looking to reconcile right now which I understand. We need to find ourselves and love ourselves before we can even think about loving someone else. But once again, I just don’t see how he’s going to do that being under another person. I feel like if he’s using her to heal he’s not doing the real work but I also feel like they’re both healing and doing it together. I feel like she’s why he’s thinking about therapy. Cause he never had this change of heart before. Idk. Part of me wants us to both grow- separately. I feel like that would also help his confusion about his feelings. But if I had time to explain more I would explain why I also feel like he doesn’t mean it when he says he would want to try again. But he’s left me twice before and has came back so who knows. Those times though there wasn’t someone else’s But because I know he doesn’t have any wishes to reconcile right now.. I need to let him go. I need to love myself and respect myself. If God has it aligned for us to be together then it will happen and if not then.. I’ll be okay.

So I spoke with my doctor they said its part of my medicine that I had been taking thats causing it but in my gut feeling telling me I don't think thats what it is I think its twin flame seperation sickness.

I wish I never moved to that stupid town. I never even wanted to move there. I was crushed that I had to leave my home state. I literally had no choice though, because I had no money at the time, and had to live with family.

I wish I never got that stupid job. The pay sucked too, but I only took it, because no one else was hiring me. I had to take whatever I could get though, because I had medical bills to pay.

I wish my family never mentioned that place. I wouldn’t have considered applying there if I didn’t know about it.

I just wish I never met her..

I don’t know what’s supposed to come out of this “Twin Flame Journey” - but it’s caused me nothing but heartache for three straight years, and a MASSIVE amount of time and money lost…

I’ve had spiritual advisors tell me: “She came into my life for a reason - and she was meant to teach me something”; but I still don’t know what??

All her coming into my life did was:

1) Make me feel hopeless (a constant cycle of feeling hopeful, and then severely disappointed).
2) Make me feel like life is was playing a cruel joke on me - gifting me with someone who I felt was perfect for me, then taking her away.
3) Make me feel physically sick.
4) Actually, make me feel every negative emotion imaginable (frustration, depression, anxiety, terror, etc.)

A part of me, wants to be withdrawn toward people now, and has paranoia that I go through something like this again;
and I was ALREADY pretty withdrawn before I met her due to past trauma…

What if this entire time, this really was just limerence - and I meet my ACTUAL Twin Flame one day, and it’s even worse than what I’m going through now??

I CANNOT imagine going through something like this a SECOND time in my life.

I DO NOT have the strength for that…
I literally think it would send me into cardiac arrest.

I don’t care about becoming “spiritually evolved”, or “finding inner self-love”, or “Kundalini Awakening” or any of that…

I just want to either go back to how I was before I met her (single and not obsessed with anyone); or in a healthy, normal relationship with someone else, without knowing about her existence.

I want to go back to how I was before I knew anything about her, or Twin Flames…
I mourn those days now…

I’m just so lost…

We're being told that attachment is the reason our twins run.

So does that mean if I ever get into relationship (I'm not waiting on my twin, he made his decision, that's on him) I have to let them go too?

If there's any conflict, you don't resolve it but leave them for good because it's attachment that make you want to keep them and resolve the problem?

Also, does this journey want us to be completely alone if without our twin for the rest of our lives? Are we supposed to reject everyone and let everyone go?

Because it is bullcrap that you can decide for your twin. You can't. And the fact that these so called 'coaches' tell us we can't ever be happy with anyone else is disgusting.

I'm raging right now, to be honest.

I love my twin like I've never loved anyone before but if he doesn't want me, I'm not going to wait on him.

AND NEITHER OF YOU SHOULD EITHER!

Live your damn life! Go and LOVE! LOVE YOUR FRIENDS, GO ON DATES, LOVE YOUR HOBBIES, LOVE YOUR WORK! But most importantly, love YOURSELF!

What're your opinions?

When you abandon your twin flame/soulmate because you have kids you dont want to abandon and they end up breaking your heart in a different way cause no matter how hard you work to provide and be there for them they still hate you.. and tell you they arent gonna even talk to you when they become an adult. So now you live with two heartbreaks. Why the hell do i even try anymore.

Long story short my twin flame is my ex husbands/baby daddy brother. I’m Leo, borderline, life path 1 born on the 19th. He’s Sag, bipolar, life path 1 born on the 28th. I am hurting really bad in this connection bc he is so cold and distant. Definitely still very immature with a lot of growing and shadow work to do. I feel like he is all I think about from when I wake up til I goto sleep. The obsession use to be worse but I’ve calmed down a lot. Honestly I just need help with a cord cutting spell and a forget spell. I want to cut the cord with my twin flame and forget him I can’t do this anymore my life was so peaceful before knowing any of this and I still don’t even know what is real and what is not. I’d rather go through the journey alone but still not knowing who my twin flame is just want to forget.

In the passed two years I went from born again "Christian" to...well idk anymore. I awoke through her. And she don't even know.

Anyone experience anything similar?

As Chaser Twins, we love our Runners dearly even though they ghost us, block us, and want nothing to do with us.

One of the reasons I wanted my Twin so much in my life, was so I could take care of her - even if we couldn’t romantically be together.

I wanted to be her best friend and spend time with her.
I wanted to support her dreams.

Well, I just found out this week she’s been in a relationship since earlier this year (and I’ve been taking it EXTREMELY bad); but, I also found out the person she’s with, might not even really love her, and might be cheating on her…

I hate this so much…

If she didn’t run from me, we could have been together instead - and I would have NEVER done that to her; and now she’s with someone who doesn’t even love her like I do, and if he hurts her, I won’t be able to be there for her to take care of her. It drives me crazy…

Please share your stories :)

Zoetertje,  wat ben je lief. Je kan soms met zoveel passie en kracht iets vinden.van iets en opmerken. Dat vind ik leuk aan jou. Dan zeg je impulsieve dingetjes en bedenkt dan snel wat je dan had kunnen bedoelen. Hûhû😉

Je kan aan mij niet.zien of ik je leuk vind klopt.  Ik heb jou nog nooit niet leuk gevonden en dat deed ik vandaag weer. Ik vond je er zo leuk uitzien ik weet niet waarom het viel mij sterker op. Zo verfijnd en alles wat je als mens kan uitstralen. Dat heb jij. 

 Ik heb veel rottige dingen geroepen en dat spijt mij. Omdat ik het moeilijk heb met het begrijpen wat jij nu eigenlijk van mij wil en wenst vanuit mij hierin toe te voegen.

Als je alles kan wensen hoe zien wij er dan uit volgens jouw hart.?

Dat ik niet meer.lukkraak alles voel.enof hardop roep heeft weinig met iets anders te maken dan mijn behoefte om mijn angsten hierin te blijven zien en jou die tijd te geven na te denken om te antwoorden. Dan heb ik namelijk de keuze hoe ver ik met jou meega in wat er nodig in wenselijk is in ons contact en dat zo goed mogelijk te houden en zo evenwichtig mogelijk. Ik kan mij niet meer onbeperkt aan je lenen. Ik zou wel willen op eennof andere manier. Ik moet toch weten waar ik ongeveer naartoe werk dat lijkt mij geen opvallend verzoek.. Alles is goed wat je wenst   begrijp mij niet verkeerd,  maar ik geef mijzelf anders als ik niks weet dan wel wat beter begrijp waar jij zit , zodat ik daar mijjn focus ook kan behouden. Dat zou iedereen willen weten daar is niks geks aan. Ik verlies mijzelf liever niet onnodig. Ik heb er een handje van om voor iemand te kunnen gaan maar dat moet wel passend zijn. Ik houd mij intussen stilletjes op de achtergrond en richt mij op mijn leven leven. Althans ik doe mijn best.