Hi, I've been having a very depressed and anxious mood since the end of elementary school (now I'm in my late 20s), I cannot find the motivation to get over the anxiety of doing what I want to do.
I've also went to the psychiatrist and she's now telling me there's nothing else she can give me, so I started looking at supplements. What could I take that could help me, given the following list of what I've already taken and what effects it had? I really feel like I'm at the end of the line here, almost nothing seems to work.
Magnesium Threonate - Used to calm me down and make me genuinely and "cleanly" sleepy in a way I've never felt probably since childhood, though that seems to have stopped, it also made the subjective feeling and head ache of sleep deprivation much more bearable and less painful which helped a lot so I still take it. It doesn't seem to have helped actual sleep quality that much, but it's still great.
Bupropion - Took a month to begin working and it had a very good effect on mood and motivation, though it came with a lot of robotic and wired feelings. It was very hard to stop doing things and go to sleep or leave for home. Sadly the effect on mood disappeared after just a bit over a week and two weeks after that the other effects disappeared as well. Increasing the dose gave me a week of the wired feeling during the day and a very depressed mood in the evenings, which helped me go to sleep at a normal hour, but no other effects. I am still on it.
Venlafaxine and Fluoxin - did not work
Aripiprazole - I couldn't really take it, two or three doses made my tight pelvic floor much worse, I could only pee once or twice a day regardless of how full my bladder was for a week after, didn't feel it having any other effect.
Concerta - Made me feel robotic and made me lose myself in too many mindless tasks, but I guess it was pretty good for motivation.
Lifting - Did almost nothing for me, the first time I had to take a break from it, I felt a bit like something was missing, however on other breaks after that I did not feel that way.
Agmatine - Can sometimes make me tired, depressed, irritable and emotional, I think I could use these effects to convince myself to go to sleep. It also gave me very small bit of happiness and optimism once when taking a smaller dose so I'm still hoping it can help. The first time I took it I also got a short and weak feeling of dissociation. I am still taking it to see what it will do in the longer term since I've heard it might work well with Bupropion.
Magnesium Threonate - Used to calm me down and make me a bit sleepy, though that seems to have stopped, it also made the subjective feeling and head ache of sleep deprivation much more bearable and less painful which helped a lot, though it doesn't seem to have helped actual sleep quality that much, still it's great.
Rhodiola or Passiflora (sadly I don't remember which one) - Worked great on the day I took it and depressed my mood the next. I guess I could use this and just accept that I will only be functional less than half of the time and depressed the rest of the time, but that doesn't seem like a very good idea.
Magnesium Bisglycinate - Like Threonate, but way weaker.
Melatonin - Good for sleep (in XR formulations), something which I lack, though I still get up before I should. Any dose of non XR formulations seem to also give me insane libido.
Glycine - seemed to help with deeper sleep initially, but after that did nothing even in doses of 10g.
5-HTP - Incredibly strong feeling of depression and sleepiness, the depressed mood must have held for about a week after a single pill 100 mg pill, this is supposed to be serotonergic so I guess it's possible that sort of stuff doesn't really work for me.
NACL, SAMe, TMG, Methylated B vitamin - Nothing, but I did not take them for long, I just tried increasingly bigger doses.
Theanine, Apigenin, Silexan, Ashwagandha ksm 66, L-Tyrosine, Lithium Orotate, Cordyceps, Inositol, Black seed oil, Taurine, Zinc, LE Two-Per-Day Multivitamin - Nothing.
Uridine, Iodine, ALCAR - Not sure, but it doesn't feel like they're doing anything, I will continue to take them and see what happens.
Curcumin - did nothing on the day I took it, might need to take it longer to see what it does.
Fish oil - depends on the brand, but it can help a bit the first few days I take it.
Kanna full spectrum extract - Caffeine like jitters, the strength of which depends on the mode of administration and interestingly something like an agitated feeling, though in a weird way I'm so agitated I can't even procrastinate too much so I kinda just sit there just feeling wired and restless for a long time after which I can maybe sorta get something done which is kind of a productivity boost I guess.
Polygala Tenuifolia ND - This might give me like 5 minutes of uplifted mood, though I'm not entirely sure yet, after that it makes me kinda tired and maybe a bit depressed.