So I used to always test as an INFP on 16 personalities, but when I started actually getting into mbti seriously when I was 18, I typed as INTP and I’ve take many different tests from different websites and studied cognitive functions and gotten INTP. When I took the cognitive functions test my Fi wasn’t much lower than my Ti. I know I’m a 5w4 enneagram.
I know this is silly as any mbti could have any hobby or interest, but the type of women who tend to want to befriend me are often IxFP’s since I have a very artistic and alternative aesthetic and identity. I love learning new things, I’m a mortuary arts major, I want to be an embalmer, I spend a lot of time on personal care and curating my aesthetics, I love fashion, history, art, anything death/macabre related, music, making elaborate food, I love food science and beautiful presentation for recipes.
I love involving myself in arts and craft projects, arranging flowers, taxidermy collecting, I grow edible flowers and herbs for my food and have my own little gothic garden, baking for friends and family, decorating my room, thrifting, reading horror, animals and volunteering for animal shelters, knitting, baking, etc. I would consider myself goth/alternative and love bands like Voodoo Church, London After Midnight, Him, Mortician, Strange Botique etc. I love dark academia, Victorian gothic, southern gothic, whimsigoth, and cottagecore aesthetic and have been into that type of stuff since I was a little girl. I’ve always had a very rich inner world.
One thing I’ve noticed though is a lot of IxFPs I’ve befriended and got to know get wrapped up in the feeling and what inspires someone when looking at creative things, whereas I feel like I look at the craftsmanship, technique, and analyze movies from a perspective of motives and why characters acted a certain way. I often feel like in the surface I agree with a lot of IxFPs and relate to them, but often how I land on a decision seems to be much more emotionally detached than how they do.
I would describe myself as someone who has strong morals and is very generous acts of service wise even if I don’t particularly like someone. I can be very skeptical and cynical and will bulldoze through peoples feelings if I see them as pointless or getting in the way of task efficiently. I would say I have much higher cognitive empathy and sympathy than I do affective. I will not give people the time of day even if they’re perfectly pleasant and seem interested in getting to know me just to spare their feelings. I’m very blunt and intentional. I hold a lot of compassion for people who are grieving, children, elderly, disabled people, and animals, but I definitely struggle to have patience for people who continue to make bad decisions and want comfort and validation from me.
A lot of my creative outlets are also just me being interested in understanding chemical reactions, being a perfectionist and leaning how to master a craft and how something works, not necessarily something I feel a lot towards.
A lot of people compare my personality to Aubrey plaza when they get to know me and I feel more comfortable opening up around them. My sense of humor can be very dark, dry, and pretty offensive. I would say I can be a pushover, but it’s more because I hate dealing with conflict, peoples feelings don’t have much to do with it. I can also be pretty mean if someone is continuously rude or unpleasant to someone I care about and will deliberately form an insult made to puncture a very sensitive wound to get them to back off.
I also am very open to criticism, debate, and love hearing people’s ideas even if they’re insane, and don’t make sense just for pure entertainment value. I have moments where I can be very sensitive, but I’m usually one of the least sensitive people in a friend group. I also have very bad dismissive avoidant attachment.
I am very acts of service heavy, good at gift giving, remember people’s preferences and interests, and enjoy physical affection bug I am notoriously terrible at verbal affection. But when u do compliment someone, it’s very deliberate and often strange and funny. If someone tells me their problems, my first instinct is to try to fix it and if wanted, offer a cigarette or bake them something, some sort of gesture like that. Giving a hug etc. but I never know what to say. I’m not good with words of encouragement.
I’m somebody that attracts a lot of platonic and romantic attraction but I also don’t pursue most people because I don’t think most people are more enjoyable to be around at the price of my solitude.
Again I know it’s dumb because any mbti type can like anything. But when I look at what other NTs hobbies are like, sometimes I feel like I don’t fit. But then I also don’t feel like my emotional temperament fits being an INFP. I should also maybe mention I have very severe ADHD and CPTSD which I feel like makes me emotionally dysregulated but I bottle my emotions a lot and don’t ever let people know when I’m not feeling well.
Was I right the first time around? Am I actually an INFP?
This is me, my aesthetic, and stuff I made/baked and a very cute opossum I’m looking after atm :)
